Wednesday, 28 February 2007
5:00 pm
well,here's a few updated pics frm dat sent0sa's 0uting.. enj0yed it wif him. :)) tks ya hunn.. my face kinda sucks c0s makeup t0o thick i gueSs. darns but heck, i l0ve his face. jus, simply ad0rable & tender t0 my eyes.. ~ aww..
d makeup sucks fr t0day.. :((
d bridge 2 d nvr ending land 0f l0ve..
p0ut th0se lips..hah!u l0st *blueks*
l0ve thee fl0wers, hate my sick face ):
jus l0ve d pic effect ~hee
i kept feeling dis way since d 1st day we became such cl0sefrens.. we jump d c0urse 0f nature t0o fast i gueSs. strangers t0 g0od buddies den besties t0 "scandal" jus t0 make s0me guy jeal0us. having g0ne thru all dat, it made us t0o cl0se dat it kept us tinking abt each 0ther & caring t0o much. 0ur cliques realised d chemistry dat we had but we never expected tings t0 b dis way.. wich is y im questi0ning! y me huh?..
1stly, he has s0 many suit0rs & a pers0nalised fanclub, but i get ch0sen wen ive 0nly kn0wn him fr a while. surprising.. wen i 1st knew him, he like s0meone cl0se t0 me & speculati0ns g0t ard wich ended up wif me reading his entire bl0g. f0und 0ut certain tings dat had relati0ns t0 a fren frm my past.. g0sh! sh0ck t0tali. futherm0re dat girl used t0 b a g0odfren 0f mine & i knew her bf t0o. k, let d pasSed be d past. but shit! i felt cheated aft readin b0th their bl0gs. dammit! reali, i didnt knw h0w t0 resp0nd.
hunn, if u'r reading dis.. im reli s0ri but i cant bear dis truth n0 l0nger.. d t0rture is painful.. evrytime i see eu, i tried t0 keep a p0sitive mindset but it always seems dat my th0ughts will drift bck abt ur past. i dun wana b deceived like last time. it hurts, badly. initially i th0ught i cud trust euu like i did wen we jus knew each 0ther but as times g0es 0n, it bec0mes such a challenge. s0mething real hard t0 accept.. isit jus me being 0ver-imaginative 0r am i f0recasted abt my future?!.. G0D, d 0nly ting i can fully trust is in EUU rite n0w. im miserable.. being attached has never been easy.. full 0f lies & deceits.
truth & lies always hurts in watever perspective u put it. im feeling amputated frm d real w0rld. i need a savi0ur. bring me t0 d right path.. if farhan's truly d 0ne fr me.. pls, i beg u t0 guide me. i dun wana g0 thru s0meting dat st0ps wif an endleSs s0rrow. dilapidated frm my senses rite n0w.. g0na get s0me shut eye.. im in a maj0r dilemma & n0body's c0operating )): sheesh dila, u'r always left 0n ur 0wn.. i wishing dat i knew d future brings.. hais.. 0utta w0rds.
d makeup sucks fr t0day.. :((
d bridge 2 d nvr ending land 0f l0ve..
p0ut th0se lips..hah!u l0st *blueks*
l0ve thee fl0wers, hate my sick face ):
jus l0ve d pic effect ~hee
i kept feeling dis way since d 1st day we became such cl0sefrens.. we jump d c0urse 0f nature t0o fast i gueSs. strangers t0 g0od buddies den besties t0 "scandal" jus t0 make s0me guy jeal0us. having g0ne thru all dat, it made us t0o cl0se dat it kept us tinking abt each 0ther & caring t0o much. 0ur cliques realised d chemistry dat we had but we never expected tings t0 b dis way.. wich is y im questi0ning! y me huh?..
1stly, he has s0 many suit0rs & a pers0nalised fanclub, but i get ch0sen wen ive 0nly kn0wn him fr a while. surprising.. wen i 1st knew him, he like s0meone cl0se t0 me & speculati0ns g0t ard wich ended up wif me reading his entire bl0g. f0und 0ut certain tings dat had relati0ns t0 a fren frm my past.. g0sh! sh0ck t0tali. futherm0re dat girl used t0 b a g0odfren 0f mine & i knew her bf t0o. k, let d pasSed be d past. but shit! i felt cheated aft readin b0th their bl0gs. dammit! reali, i didnt knw h0w t0 resp0nd.
hunn, if u'r reading dis.. im reli s0ri but i cant bear dis truth n0 l0nger.. d t0rture is painful.. evrytime i see eu, i tried t0 keep a p0sitive mindset but it always seems dat my th0ughts will drift bck abt ur past. i dun wana b deceived like last time. it hurts, badly. initially i th0ught i cud trust euu like i did wen we jus knew each 0ther but as times g0es 0n, it bec0mes such a challenge. s0mething real hard t0 accept.. isit jus me being 0ver-imaginative 0r am i f0recasted abt my future?!.. G0D, d 0nly ting i can fully trust is in EUU rite n0w. im miserable.. being attached has never been easy.. full 0f lies & deceits.
truth & lies always hurts in watever perspective u put it. im feeling amputated frm d real w0rld. i need a savi0ur. bring me t0 d right path.. if farhan's truly d 0ne fr me.. pls, i beg u t0 guide me. i dun wana g0 thru s0meting dat st0ps wif an endleSs s0rrow. dilapidated frm my senses rite n0w.. g0na get s0me shut eye.. im in a maj0r dilemma & n0body's c0operating )): sheesh dila, u'r always left 0n ur 0wn.. i wishing dat i knew d future brings.. hais.. 0utta w0rds.
This is Love, right?
