Wednesday 31 January 2007
10:20 am
updatin u guys abt wat happen ystrday. s0ry ppl late entry.. wel, its a tues s0 had t0 g0 t0 wrk rite? haha! k, managemnt fr paperppl is terrible c0s d meeting/payday was supp0sed t0 b at 9:30am but 9 :46am, der was 0nly salbiah, ain0n, filzah & me. 15min later farhan came & ap0logised but wat?!! suffiyan jus w0ke up! cant accept!
nvm. s0 we enter d sh0p 1st, l0okin at d new st0cks & irfan came.. damn he's cute stuff. ain0n, filzah, salbiah & i went t0 get sum f0od s0 i b0ught 2 h0neychicky pau. wen we came bck, we saw suffiyan den juliah & yani was d last. intan wasnt der c0s 0f sch. n0ne ap0logise fr their lateness. ridicul0us. 0mg!! meeting began pr0per at 11am.. h0rrend0us.
discussin abt d 24th Feb & beats s0ciety wif b al0ngside us.. w0ah! bapak, elfi & darling called & sms but cudnt rply c0s i was bside irfan & he kept smilin at me.. aww.. cair sak! kk, meeting ended & i rush 0ff t0 mit h0ney but he said dat its 0k, he d0esnt tink dat ders any tickets left fr t0night's match. damn sia.. i knw fr sure he l0ves s0ccer. i was sad c0s he cant watch it LIVE. argh! s0 i went strait t0 wrk at wisma.. stati0ned al0ne & i punch in at 1:35pm.. early sak.
kinda 0k c0s i chat wif him.. den i spent my time chatting wif din, aidil & dis 1 t0psh0p guy; d0nt rmbr his name.. (: dey entertain me c0s dey had n0thing t0 d0 either.. time flies while talkin t0 dem abt crappy tings.. ard 7+, my dearest came wif his ad0rable fren.. i l0iike her. she s0 frenly & pr0per. matured tinking fr a 15 turning 16yr 0ld girl. c0ngrads ya! h0ney blanje pepper'0' frm 0ld chang kee. nice den we walked til cine b4 til paradiz ctr. b0ard d bus til intrchnge.
i hang0ut wif him fr awhile b4 heading h0me.. yea,i b0rr0wed his pSp. em0 shit in d bus. mats disturb als0 i didnt care c0s i was c0ncerned fr d s0ngs & n0t dem, surprisingly. whakaka!! i need t0 go & ir09n my cl0thes fr later.. im meeting him. i w0nder wats d surprise dis time.. he's t0o full 0f surprises. darlin isnt he?.. (:
nvm. s0 we enter d sh0p 1st, l0okin at d new st0cks & irfan came.. damn he's cute stuff. ain0n, filzah, salbiah & i went t0 get sum f0od s0 i b0ught 2 h0neychicky pau. wen we came bck, we saw suffiyan den juliah & yani was d last. intan wasnt der c0s 0f sch. n0ne ap0logise fr their lateness. ridicul0us. 0mg!! meeting began pr0per at 11am.. h0rrend0us.
discussin abt d 24th Feb & beats s0ciety wif b al0ngside us.. w0ah! bapak, elfi & darling called & sms but cudnt rply c0s i was bside irfan & he kept smilin at me.. aww.. cair sak! kk, meeting ended & i rush 0ff t0 mit h0ney but he said dat its 0k, he d0esnt tink dat ders any tickets left fr t0night's match. damn sia.. i knw fr sure he l0ves s0ccer. i was sad c0s he cant watch it LIVE. argh! s0 i went strait t0 wrk at wisma.. stati0ned al0ne & i punch in at 1:35pm.. early sak.
kinda 0k c0s i chat wif him.. den i spent my time chatting wif din, aidil & dis 1 t0psh0p guy; d0nt rmbr his name.. (: dey entertain me c0s dey had n0thing t0 d0 either.. time flies while talkin t0 dem abt crappy tings.. ard 7+, my dearest came wif his ad0rable fren.. i l0iike her. she s0 frenly & pr0per. matured tinking fr a 15 turning 16yr 0ld girl. c0ngrads ya! h0ney blanje pepper'0' frm 0ld chang kee. nice den we walked til cine b4 til paradiz ctr. b0ard d bus til intrchnge.
i hang0ut wif him fr awhile b4 heading h0me.. yea,i b0rr0wed his pSp. em0 shit in d bus. mats disturb als0 i didnt care c0s i was c0ncerned fr d s0ngs & n0t dem, surprisingly. whakaka!! i need t0 go & ir09n my cl0thes fr later.. im meeting him. i w0nder wats d surprise dis time.. he's t0o full 0f surprises. darlin isnt he?.. (:
This is Love, right?
Tuesday 30 January 2007
11:45 pm
life's been unseemingly great dis past tw0 days dat i cudnt evn get d 0ppurtunity t0 bl0g 0r write my dear diary.. hmpff. but dats 0k, feeling utterly pleased wif evryting dat im having rite n0w.. bie, i truly enj0yed d past tw0 days wif ya.. n0thing but fantastic.. evnth0ugh ur ezlink card's like g0na b finished u stil came all d way & didnt want me t0 pay f0r d bus fares.. ):
i met him ystrday & we jus hang0ut ard bt gmbk c0s its alrdy like aft 6pm dat we plan t0 mit up.. :P we l0oked like idi0ts c0s we l0oked s0 unlike us.. usuali we w0uld dress up evn f0r a lil bit n0w dat day was super slack. sch tshirt & silat pants while i was in tshirt & 3-quarters. heh! cant imagine h0w we managed t0 pull thru such an image. we hang0ut at my fav0urite chill 0ut place..did crazy tings dat shall b unmenti0ned. stupid la actuali & extremely funny. rch der at ard 7+ & hang0ut til 10pm c0s he needed t0 g0 h0me..
0tw h0me, we j0ked abt many delude stuffs. damn i cant recall rite n0w abt wat we laughed abt. but i d0 rmbr d fact dat i laugh til i sat 0n d pavement c0s my tummy hurts & he's standin l0okin dwn at me & hitting his f0rehead. hhahaha!! funny like hell til s0me taxi apek turn t0 l0ok at us.. haha! deluded id0its. lame seyy.. we cudnt st0p laughin til we mit fadlyana undr blk 242. haha, she's s0 BIG but she's afraid 0f a tiny puny cr0ach. dumb.
sent me h0me, b0rr0wed d ganyut dvd b4 i sent him 0ff at d buzstp at mami's 0ld h0use. he entered my h0use & my dad kept calling f0r him, haha but he didnt knw c0s he went strait t0 d t0ilet. whakaka! s0 basicali he didnt hear my dad callin him. gundu sayy euu.. niwae, aft send him h0me, wait f0r his call b4 sleeping (:
abt 2day's st0ry..update tmr k? im tired 0f typing. haha..jus quite came bck frm wrk s0 ya l0r.. tkcr h0neys.
i met him ystrday & we jus hang0ut ard bt gmbk c0s its alrdy like aft 6pm dat we plan t0 mit up.. :P we l0oked like idi0ts c0s we l0oked s0 unlike us.. usuali we w0uld dress up evn f0r a lil bit n0w dat day was super slack. sch tshirt & silat pants while i was in tshirt & 3-quarters. heh! cant imagine h0w we managed t0 pull thru such an image. we hang0ut at my fav0urite chill 0ut place..did crazy tings dat shall b unmenti0ned. stupid la actuali & extremely funny. rch der at ard 7+ & hang0ut til 10pm c0s he needed t0 g0 h0me..
0tw h0me, we j0ked abt many delude stuffs. damn i cant recall rite n0w abt wat we laughed abt. but i d0 rmbr d fact dat i laugh til i sat 0n d pavement c0s my tummy hurts & he's standin l0okin dwn at me & hitting his f0rehead. hhahaha!! funny like hell til s0me taxi apek turn t0 l0ok at us.. haha! deluded id0its. lame seyy.. we cudnt st0p laughin til we mit fadlyana undr blk 242. haha, she's s0 BIG but she's afraid 0f a tiny puny cr0ach. dumb.
sent me h0me, b0rr0wed d ganyut dvd b4 i sent him 0ff at d buzstp at mami's 0ld h0use. he entered my h0use & my dad kept calling f0r him, haha but he didnt knw c0s he went strait t0 d t0ilet. whakaka! s0 basicali he didnt hear my dad callin him. gundu sayy euu.. niwae, aft send him h0me, wait f0r his call b4 sleeping (:
abt 2day's st0ry..update tmr k? im tired 0f typing. haha..jus quite came bck frm wrk s0 ya l0r.. tkcr h0neys.
This is Love, right?
Sunday 28 January 2007
10:15 pm
an0ther day at werk..cr0wd wasnt as great t0day. btw, im referin t0 paperpe0ple, n0t tyan b0utique. viv0 t0psh0p/t0pman. haha, dat stupid ryan kept disturbing me again. asked whether i wanted s0me nach0s dat he b0ught. haha! lame but he's s0 ad0rable & dat hawty h0tt hawtty nich0las talked t0 me. he's d guy wh0 l0oks malay but in fact, he's chinese. i'll die staring at his eyes.. 0ogling. im g0na sign up as his die-hard fan. but i still l0ve my dearie.
start d day gr8 c0s bie call & chat wif him den chat wif elfi til i rch viv0. came late by 15min but farhan didnt mind. many cust0mers came by & i made 3 frens. aszlyn, hawa & her adik. darling girls frm YISS malay dance. dey'r l0oking fr j0b vacancies, exchanged numbers bef0re dey went 0ff. s0me guys wana kenal kenal but as usual, i aint interested. i stick by 0ne 0nly & i MEAN IT!!
bump int0 apul's fren wh0m i dun rmbr d name. he was wif his gf & daughter. talked t0 nani & chat wif dis guy name sufi while his gf was in d changing r0om. haha. he's 15 but atch t0 a 21yr 0ld w0man. bad catch th0ugh, hah! i called him but n0body answer d h0use ph0ne. r0tting der til farhan came at 9:02pm. by den, st0ck was $203, i met d target. yea t0 me! sms pe0ple dat i hardly sms like his adik ((:
g0 mkn wif farhan, he blanje eat satay. i ate d chickens while he ate d kambing & lembu. d guy wrking at d stall tried t0 hit 0n me. bleah! im taken swhiit thang. aft dat i b0ard 963 h0me.. while in d bus, his adik called. haha! funny chat wif her bef0re chatting wif her abg (: talked til i rch h0me s0 n0w im bl0gging aft i finish mandi. haha, g0na beep my h0ney n0w. cha0 darling..
start d day gr8 c0s bie call & chat wif him den chat wif elfi til i rch viv0. came late by 15min but farhan didnt mind. many cust0mers came by & i made 3 frens. aszlyn, hawa & her adik. darling girls frm YISS malay dance. dey'r l0oking fr j0b vacancies, exchanged numbers bef0re dey went 0ff. s0me guys wana kenal kenal but as usual, i aint interested. i stick by 0ne 0nly & i MEAN IT!!
bump int0 apul's fren wh0m i dun rmbr d name. he was wif his gf & daughter. talked t0 nani & chat wif dis guy name sufi while his gf was in d changing r0om. haha. he's 15 but atch t0 a 21yr 0ld w0man. bad catch th0ugh, hah! i called him but n0body answer d h0use ph0ne. r0tting der til farhan came at 9:02pm. by den, st0ck was $203, i met d target. yea t0 me! sms pe0ple dat i hardly sms like his adik ((:
g0 mkn wif farhan, he blanje eat satay. i ate d chickens while he ate d kambing & lembu. d guy wrking at d stall tried t0 hit 0n me. bleah! im taken swhiit thang. aft dat i b0ard 963 h0me.. while in d bus, his adik called. haha! funny chat wif her bef0re chatting wif her abg (: talked til i rch h0me s0 n0w im bl0gging aft i finish mandi. haha, g0na beep my h0ney n0w. cha0 darling..
This is Love, right?
Saturday 27 January 2007
11:58 pm
c0mplicati0ns aft c0mplicati0ns.. its started 0ff like shit bc0s tix fr d match was s0ld0ut & i didnt feel like entertaining him at all. vry much unlike me.. he pik me up frm my place. stubb0rn. he left his h0use like super early ard 1+ rite aft his s0ccer match. hah! s0 basicali he's been like 0ut since m0rning. guys tk reti makne penat esp wen it c0ncerns s0ccer. like dey say, b0ys wil b b0ys..
niwae, he said 4pm undr my blk but 4:30pm den he called. beep his hp, n0 value. den i went t0 buy d c0ntacts s0luti0n at d uncle wh0 alwys giv me disc0unts & bump int0 din0, achik & b0b. smue tukar num, like shit seyy.. s0 i ign0re him like al0t 0f times. we didnt knw wher 2 head t0 so we b0ard 963 til viv0. in d bus i fell aslp c0s hvnt had peaceful nights lately. still n0t talking t0 hiim.. i was still upset 0ver d c0nversati0n i had wif dat GIRL frm his past.. )):
at viv0, still n0t much talking. he talked but i was silent. weird huh? im usuali n0isy. we kep 0ur distance while walking. d wh0le day was b0ring, i s0meh0w cant bring myself t0 talk t0 him. d truth hurts badly, can s0meb0dy st0p all dis madneSs. i dun wana make rash decisi0ns. i saw aqila w her bf in viv0, she l0oks fab. he wanted t0 buy s0me mkn in GIANT & wanted t0 drag me al0ng. hais.. lazy seyy. cann0t g0 al0ne huh?.. ): n0 m0od la. duncha get it?..
left viv0, head t0 seah im f0odc0urt. i didnt feel like eating but i knew he was hungry & wil 0nly eat if i d0 s0 i 0rder kway te0w. fattening! ugh. wel, as l0ng as he mkn, i'd b fine.. evn if i l0ok like a fat pig. bleah! ate d same ting but t0tal silent. he talk n0t me. hah! im like s0 d0wn. i ate wif little appetite & a fucked up face which l0oks like im crying. terrible. k, he wana send me h0me strait aft dinner its 0nly 7+. s0 early?.. s0 we sat ard at d intrchnge & had t0 brace his iritatingneSs.
at 0ne p0int, i cudnt take it s0 i walked 0ff & cr0sS d 0vrhead bridge tinkin dat i shud take 61 since 963 was f0revr packed. sat der fr a while b4 returnin t0 d intrchnge. he's g0ne..~n0p,he came back dr0pped d pSp & raise his v0ice. watevr. still pisSing me 0ff s0 i lined up fr 963 but halfway, danial called s0 i wennt t0 mit him at d mrt & t0pup my ezlink t0o. i came back up tinkin he had g0ne h0me but n0o0o.. he's der still waiting. sweet but sickening. desperate t0 send me h0me. cant 0blige n0 l0nger. s0 i jus kept mum.
963 & saw fuckin nurul wh0 st0le apul frm me. bitch. had t0 sit bside her in d bus. he didnt help.. kept fiddlin wif my hands, lying 0n my sh0ulders & sayin dat he'll l0ve me evn if i dun. ya.. blah blah blah. suddenly, my heart s0ften s0 i entertain him. he seemed ecstatic c0s i resp0nd t0 his lameneSs. still cheery s0 we hang0ut at d playgrd's tunnel in frnt 0f cik piah's h0use. sp0re & msia 1-1. my neighb0urh0od was alive at night. hah!
wel, in d end sp0re w0n frm penalty s0 2-1 ((: glad i was. he was thrilled t0o esp c0nfessing dat he w0re d sp0re jersey but wen he f0unf 0ut d tix was s0ld0ut, he zipped up his jacket. dumb! wel, i cant bear seeing th0se d0pey eyes wen he's eyes gets watery. its heart melting. aww.. he finali knew dat i was a risk taker. s0 sl0w sia.. like it? u basket.nvm. sent him 0ff t0 d 852 buzstp, kiszed him gdnight & went h0me. dats it, 0ff t0 bed n0w. bye.. (:
niwae, he said 4pm undr my blk but 4:30pm den he called. beep his hp, n0 value. den i went t0 buy d c0ntacts s0luti0n at d uncle wh0 alwys giv me disc0unts & bump int0 din0, achik & b0b. smue tukar num, like shit seyy.. s0 i ign0re him like al0t 0f times. we didnt knw wher 2 head t0 so we b0ard 963 til viv0. in d bus i fell aslp c0s hvnt had peaceful nights lately. still n0t talking t0 hiim.. i was still upset 0ver d c0nversati0n i had wif dat GIRL frm his past.. )):
at viv0, still n0t much talking. he talked but i was silent. weird huh? im usuali n0isy. we kep 0ur distance while walking. d wh0le day was b0ring, i s0meh0w cant bring myself t0 talk t0 him. d truth hurts badly, can s0meb0dy st0p all dis madneSs. i dun wana make rash decisi0ns. i saw aqila w her bf in viv0, she l0oks fab. he wanted t0 buy s0me mkn in GIANT & wanted t0 drag me al0ng. hais.. lazy seyy. cann0t g0 al0ne huh?.. ): n0 m0od la. duncha get it?..
left viv0, head t0 seah im f0odc0urt. i didnt feel like eating but i knew he was hungry & wil 0nly eat if i d0 s0 i 0rder kway te0w. fattening! ugh. wel, as l0ng as he mkn, i'd b fine.. evn if i l0ok like a fat pig. bleah! ate d same ting but t0tal silent. he talk n0t me. hah! im like s0 d0wn. i ate wif little appetite & a fucked up face which l0oks like im crying. terrible. k, he wana send me h0me strait aft dinner its 0nly 7+. s0 early?.. s0 we sat ard at d intrchnge & had t0 brace his iritatingneSs.
at 0ne p0int, i cudnt take it s0 i walked 0ff & cr0sS d 0vrhead bridge tinkin dat i shud take 61 since 963 was f0revr packed. sat der fr a while b4 returnin t0 d intrchnge. he's g0ne..~n0p,he came back dr0pped d pSp & raise his v0ice. watevr. still pisSing me 0ff s0 i lined up fr 963 but halfway, danial called s0 i wennt t0 mit him at d mrt & t0pup my ezlink t0o. i came back up tinkin he had g0ne h0me but n0o0o.. he's der still waiting. sweet but sickening. desperate t0 send me h0me. cant 0blige n0 l0nger. s0 i jus kept mum.
963 & saw fuckin nurul wh0 st0le apul frm me. bitch. had t0 sit bside her in d bus. he didnt help.. kept fiddlin wif my hands, lying 0n my sh0ulders & sayin dat he'll l0ve me evn if i dun. ya.. blah blah blah. suddenly, my heart s0ften s0 i entertain him. he seemed ecstatic c0s i resp0nd t0 his lameneSs. still cheery s0 we hang0ut at d playgrd's tunnel in frnt 0f cik piah's h0use. sp0re & msia 1-1. my neighb0urh0od was alive at night. hah!
wel, in d end sp0re w0n frm penalty s0 2-1 ((: glad i was. he was thrilled t0o esp c0nfessing dat he w0re d sp0re jersey but wen he f0unf 0ut d tix was s0ld0ut, he zipped up his jacket. dumb! wel, i cant bear seeing th0se d0pey eyes wen he's eyes gets watery. its heart melting. aww.. he finali knew dat i was a risk taker. s0 sl0w sia.. like it? u basket.nvm. sent him 0ff t0 d 852 buzstp, kiszed him gdnight & went h0me. dats it, 0ff t0 bed n0w. bye.. (:
This is Love, right?
11:09 am
fantastic. he deleted d sunday p0st. hah! tinkin dat he was sweet but.. nvm. let him be. i reli dun0 whether did is fr real 0r jus a h0ax. like its all a set up. fucking hell! i s0 dun like dis.. if u dun l0ve me den p0ut it. dun leave me hangin c0s i dun wana b wastin my fuckin time waitin fr guys n0 m0re. im seri0usly thru wif all dis stuff. its addin m0re burden. i t0t bein in l0ve wif change evryting but i gueSs i was mistaken. i tink she's RIGHT. im n0t gd enuf fr u.. u nd s0me0ne wh0 may b able t0 cater t0 all ur needs. i cant. im just pathetic. useleSs. i cant make ur day like she d0es. bet u still like her but i jus dun knw & u'r putting me tru dis gueSsing game. im thru.. i need a vacati0n. im pressured. jus dun0 wat m i t0 d0.. i feel s0 cheated. t0t u wer d 0ne but i may b wr0ng 0nce again. i thru wif guys.. dey screw up my life.. ):
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Thursday 25 January 2007
11:56 pm
2day was excepti0nal.. finali wrking at tyan b0utique again.. wif was gr8 bey0nd c0mpared. imagine urself wrking in a b0utique wif many excellent designers ambience. its fab, i tell u. seri0us. i was p0sted 2 palais renaissance. d manager was jessie. she's s0 nice, it made me feel s0 welc0med. futherm0re, she's 5 mths pregnant. darling b0y.. aww..
started 0ff at 11am.. many cust0mers frm different walks 0f life.. m0stly th0se lavish 0nes. great spender. d cheapest 0f d designer labels are ard $90+ bc0s its a l0cal designer but if its frm bigger 0nes like r0bert0 cavalli 0r vivienne westw0od, it can sh0ot up til $3,000/+. fanciful but its hard 0n d p0ckets esp wen u'r n0t frm wealthy family.. i ad0re angm0hs. dey buy l0ads of different labels..
der was dis aussie family dat b0ught 12 g0ods am0untin t0 $3,762 & he paid CASH! damn. a die-hard tyan cust0mer came wif her fren & b0ught at least 7g0ods each. yea, dey dun feel d guilt 0f ovrspending. d die-hard cust0mer even went t0 d extend 0f taking a pic 0f a red babyd0ll dress & mms-ing her daughter. hah! i d0 blame d vasity 0f techn0logy. d wrk ended at 7:30pm. he's pivking me up (:
s0 met him 0utside f0rum & had dinner at maCd bc0s i was cravin fr d pr0perity burger. bsides, i didnt eat aniting d wh0le day. d cust0mers made me 4get abt f0od. he was sweet. misz him c0s we didnt meet like a week 0r so. aft f0rum, we went 2 fareast. he's s0 ridicul0us but hapen at d 0rchard mrt staircase was 0ne 0f a kind. stupid sia eu.. k, l0ok at s0me stuff & kacau farhan paperppl. i dump him sayin dat i was at nyp & i cant wrk wen i actuali hav 2 wrk s0mewher else. bastard. flirt seyy.. fancy sayin dat im s0 gatal. speak fr urself la bie..
aft dat went t0 wisma. walked ard.. b4 he pulled me 0ut 0f wisma & made me run 2 ind0Chine bc0s dey wer playin d s0ng creep. hah! i d0 like dat s0ng t0o, as in d meaning. its getting late yet he desperately wana send me h0me. dats th0ughtful s0 t0ok 106 rch bt btk & saw my fanclub maniacs. he sned me til my h0use b4 he left. pSp wif me.. can play games. i tink dat will st0p his pSp addicti0n t0o. haha..
started 0ff at 11am.. many cust0mers frm different walks 0f life.. m0stly th0se lavish 0nes. great spender. d cheapest 0f d designer labels are ard $90+ bc0s its a l0cal designer but if its frm bigger 0nes like r0bert0 cavalli 0r vivienne westw0od, it can sh0ot up til $3,000/+. fanciful but its hard 0n d p0ckets esp wen u'r n0t frm wealthy family.. i ad0re angm0hs. dey buy l0ads of different labels..
der was dis aussie family dat b0ught 12 g0ods am0untin t0 $3,762 & he paid CASH! damn. a die-hard tyan cust0mer came wif her fren & b0ught at least 7g0ods each. yea, dey dun feel d guilt 0f ovrspending. d die-hard cust0mer even went t0 d extend 0f taking a pic 0f a red babyd0ll dress & mms-ing her daughter. hah! i d0 blame d vasity 0f techn0logy. d wrk ended at 7:30pm. he's pivking me up (:
s0 met him 0utside f0rum & had dinner at maCd bc0s i was cravin fr d pr0perity burger. bsides, i didnt eat aniting d wh0le day. d cust0mers made me 4get abt f0od. he was sweet. misz him c0s we didnt meet like a week 0r so. aft f0rum, we went 2 fareast. he's s0 ridicul0us but hapen at d 0rchard mrt staircase was 0ne 0f a kind. stupid sia eu.. k, l0ok at s0me stuff & kacau farhan paperppl. i dump him sayin dat i was at nyp & i cant wrk wen i actuali hav 2 wrk s0mewher else. bastard. flirt seyy.. fancy sayin dat im s0 gatal. speak fr urself la bie..
aft dat went t0 wisma. walked ard.. b4 he pulled me 0ut 0f wisma & made me run 2 ind0Chine bc0s dey wer playin d s0ng creep. hah! i d0 like dat s0ng t0o, as in d meaning. its getting late yet he desperately wana send me h0me. dats th0ughtful s0 t0ok 106 rch bt btk & saw my fanclub maniacs. he sned me til my h0use b4 he left. pSp wif me.. can play games. i tink dat will st0p his pSp addicti0n t0o. haha..
This is Love, right?
Wednesday 24 January 2007
9:21 am
hmm..i cant decide as yet. shud i jus stick 2 0ne j0b 0r b0th? tyan b0utique & paperpe0ple wants me.. damn! h0w? perhaps i shud c0unter w0rk.. hav b0th. w0rk wkdays fr tyan & wkends fr paperpe0ple. ugh! farhan. i wana c0mplain. mcm mane ni?.. i tried callin eu but u tk answer.. y seyy?.. tag me wen u read dis bl0g k? i need s0me c0nfirmati0n. nvm. nvm. i need 2 get my mummy a b0ok frm paperpe0ple. anyting dats green, its her fav. ((:
i chat wif my mr papadum ystrday.. whakaka! called me missy sausage. wth?! i l0athe sausages. ugh! digust me. he's practicali lame, like usual. ahaks! til t0day, he has 0wed me 14 ep0k-ep0k. rmbr dat? i dun fren u.. u mus make dem wif TLC if n0t, its rejected & u 0we ibu PIZZA since last yr.. haha! she's g0na hantam u s0on. u've been replaced by her.. t0o bad. :P
wasnt any c'brati0n c0s d timing t0o packed up.. dis wkend c'brati0n!.. parents went 0ut 2 st0ck up f0od supply & wen i was talkin 2 mr fr0ggie [keke.. l0ve dat name!], my parents returned s0 had 2 pick up d heavy plastics. i went 0ut 0f d h0use wif h0t pants & a l0ng tshirt. d stupid matrip neighb0ur didnt let his fuckin eyes 0ff me. jerk. hatee euu.. :/
haha. heck s0 i pick up d stuffs & ran back inside my safe z0ne.. layan my nenek til she sleep & talked 2 h0ney fr0ggy again. aww.. u'r such a darling. my bucuk bucuk.. whakaka! cant help it.. i misz eu la.. its been DAYS since we last met. d last was LAST FRIDAY!!! ugh! baby, can we mit s0on. im dying here. cant chat l0ng c0s we supp0se 2 talk 0nly til 11pm but he called my h0use at 12:15 dis m0rning.. haha! miss called a m0ment t0o late. ~bang! i l0ve eu bie. hugs & kisses. ((: pr0mise dat i'll acc0mpany eu 2 d s0ccer match k? peri0d.
i chat wif my mr papadum ystrday.. whakaka! called me missy sausage. wth?! i l0athe sausages. ugh! digust me. he's practicali lame, like usual. ahaks! til t0day, he has 0wed me 14 ep0k-ep0k. rmbr dat? i dun fren u.. u mus make dem wif TLC if n0t, its rejected & u 0we ibu PIZZA since last yr.. haha! she's g0na hantam u s0on. u've been replaced by her.. t0o bad. :P
wasnt any c'brati0n c0s d timing t0o packed up.. dis wkend c'brati0n!.. parents went 0ut 2 st0ck up f0od supply & wen i was talkin 2 mr fr0ggie [keke.. l0ve dat name!], my parents returned s0 had 2 pick up d heavy plastics. i went 0ut 0f d h0use wif h0t pants & a l0ng tshirt. d stupid matrip neighb0ur didnt let his fuckin eyes 0ff me. jerk. hatee euu.. :/
haha. heck s0 i pick up d stuffs & ran back inside my safe z0ne.. layan my nenek til she sleep & talked 2 h0ney fr0ggy again. aww.. u'r such a darling. my bucuk bucuk.. whakaka! cant help it.. i misz eu la.. its been DAYS since we last met. d last was LAST FRIDAY!!! ugh! baby, can we mit s0on. im dying here. cant chat l0ng c0s we supp0se 2 talk 0nly til 11pm but he called my h0use at 12:15 dis m0rning.. haha! miss called a m0ment t0o late. ~bang! i l0ve eu bie. hugs & kisses. ((: pr0mise dat i'll acc0mpany eu 2 d s0ccer match k? peri0d.
This is Love, right?
Tuesday 23 January 2007
12:23 pm
the love dat i 0nce had f0r eu has faded..
t0 wh0m it may c0ncern..
F.Y.I. it tink, wats passed is past..
f0rget abt it.. i aint returnin t0 y0u..
here's a c0mpr0mised answer f0r euu since u dun seem t0 get d idea;
"watcha doing looking at me
with that fuzzy attitude
here i go just so silently
your eyes to me are nude
for all that i've done, u gave me hate
why don't you just walk away?
you gotta accept this, this is your fate
is this all you've got to say?
my hands are wrinkled, its your fucking FAULT
crack them knuckles and scream
all i see now is my pandoras box, bolt
and i might just call this an ATTITUDE SUPREME"
CRAZY,
thats how you drive me baby..
wana play d game. i'd d0 it ur way. i played nice but i g0t phunk 0ut. g0.. my l0ve life is a game f0r 2 & ur n0t part 0f mine playa s0, SCRAM..
f0rget abt it.. i aint returnin t0 y0u..
here's a c0mpr0mised answer f0r euu since u dun seem t0 get d idea;
"watcha doing looking at me
with that fuzzy attitude
here i go just so silently
your eyes to me are nude
for all that i've done, u gave me hate
why don't you just walk away?
you gotta accept this, this is your fate
is this all you've got to say?
my hands are wrinkled, its your fucking FAULT
crack them knuckles and scream
all i see now is my pandoras box, bolt
and i might just call this an ATTITUDE SUPREME"
CRAZY,
thats how you drive me baby..
wana play d game. i'd d0 it ur way. i played nice but i g0t phunk 0ut. g0.. my l0ve life is a game f0r 2 & ur n0t part 0f mine playa s0, SCRAM..
This is Love, right?
Monday 22 January 2007
2:19 pm
dis is d pic dat i t0ok 0f my mum & haziqah. happy bdae u tw0!! haziqah's bdae 0n 21st jan & 23rd jan but c'brated t0gether. haha! dun dey l0ok s0 cute? haha.. n0thing much t0 write actuali. well dats all t0day..This is Love, right?
9:12 am
like 0mg! guess wh0 called me at 11:28pm ystrday?..nah! wr0ng! ITS HIM!! i l0ve him.. im like s0 flabbergasted dat i giggled like half d time. he cant stand being apart either. thank u h0ney. i l0ve u s0 much.. u ended my day w0nderfully. esp wen my ppd is running l0w but i manage 2 talk 2 him til 1+. yeah. stupid ppd, need 2 change 2 line.. argh! i cant help it. my day wishes & h0pes has finali paid 0ff wen he beep me.. he s0unded kinda l0st wen he called. like speechless.
damn. damn. damn. he misz me t0o.. i misz u m0re times infinity plus 1. (: i reli enj0yed d c0nversati0n evnth0u its sh0rt-lived. i relished evry sec dat we spent 0n d ph0ne.. nvr knew u wud call. t0t u wud b str0ng enuff. guess im wr0ng. we'r d same. l0ve eu.. l0ve eu.. l0ve euu.. argh! i'll g0 crazy.. dun0 wat 2 say actuali but, im glad dat he called me.. its like a miracle. i ad0re euu.. i've finali relinquish my dilemmas. tks hubby. btw, read ur bl0g. ad0rati0n. i've tagged i tink. wake up quickly yaa?.. my preci0us sleepyhead. hah. need 2 g0, must attend 2 my nenek. l0ve y'all & u t0o h0ney. muacks! l0tsa l0ve fr evry0ne.. spread it..
damn. damn. damn. he misz me t0o.. i misz u m0re times infinity plus 1. (: i reli enj0yed d c0nversati0n evnth0u its sh0rt-lived. i relished evry sec dat we spent 0n d ph0ne.. nvr knew u wud call. t0t u wud b str0ng enuff. guess im wr0ng. we'r d same. l0ve eu.. l0ve eu.. l0ve euu.. argh! i'll g0 crazy.. dun0 wat 2 say actuali but, im glad dat he called me.. its like a miracle. i ad0re euu.. i've finali relinquish my dilemmas. tks hubby. btw, read ur bl0g. ad0rati0n. i've tagged i tink. wake up quickly yaa?.. my preci0us sleepyhead. hah. need 2 g0, must attend 2 my nenek. l0ve y'all & u t0o h0ney. muacks! l0tsa l0ve fr evry0ne.. spread it..
This is Love, right?
Sunday 21 January 2007
10:21 pm
hey.. i jus went 0nline 2 publish d aftnun stuff. hais..werk was gr8. except fr d fact dat i wasted 6 pages writing abt him. hah! lets n0t say waste.. i c0ntributed my th0ughts & w0es int0 d fauna@paperpe0ple bk. hais.. im l0vesick. paramedic puhleez.. d cust0mers wer 0k & i g0t myself a diary. tks b0ss. i l0ve it. its pink th0u but very artistically designed. it c0st $20 but i g0t it F.0.C. l0ve it.. i've started writing my diary alrdy. im pr0bably d0in dis 0utta man0t0ny. b0red0m, hah! s0ri fr d chim w0rds. my bad.
haha. s0me act0r frm ganyut als0 werkin at t0psh0p. he made my day but i cnt recall his name. shucks! s0ri dear, bad mem0ry (: wel, cust0mers fl0ck my desk enquirin abt t0psh0p. huh? im frm PAPERPE0PLE darling, n0 t0psh0p. 1 great w0man b0ught stuff c0st $70+. l0ve eu, wh0evr u may b. s0me hunkalici0us cust0mers left their c0ntacts but i've j0tted dem dwn in d fauna bk. s0ri, im taken fr LIFE! werkin al0ne, s0 rather enj0yin.. made frens wif m0re staffs. bubbly bunch.. s0me 0ffered 2 buy me f0od, drinks & faggies! c0ol..
had l0ts 0f cryin g0in 0n wif me.. since d 12n0on til i rch h0me. kept hearing l0ve s0ngs dat reminds me 0f hiim! felt guilty th0u but i've f0und a s0luti0n. hectic day.. he's 0n my mind like 24/7. evry lil ting reminds me 0f him. h0ney, pls call. i misz eu greatly.. i d0. really. wishing im in ur arms rite n0w, u kissed me & sayin u misz me t0o. h0w i wished. my spirits are dampen rite n0w. i've n0 strength but i'll endure c0s i hav faith in US! went h0me wif hakeem.. ha! made me giggle a lil s0 ya.. dats it fr 2 day. i'll publish it tmr since d bl0g webbie's c0nnecti0n l0w... save it as draft 1st. nites pe0ple..
"some people will work things out
and some just don't know how to change
lets not wait till the water runs dry
we might watch our whole lives pass us by
lets not wait till the water runs dry
we'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
dont do it,baby
now they can see the tears in our eyes
but we deny the pain that lies
deep in our hearts
well maybe thats a pain we cant hide
why do we hurt each other so much?"
s0ri i've ever misunderst0od u.. im ap0logise. making dis clear dat i dun wana break d chemistry dat we hav. seri0usly, im praying fr wats best fr us.. i kn0w u d0 t0o.. h0pe ur decisi0n prevails.. ):
haha. s0me act0r frm ganyut als0 werkin at t0psh0p. he made my day but i cnt recall his name. shucks! s0ri dear, bad mem0ry (: wel, cust0mers fl0ck my desk enquirin abt t0psh0p. huh? im frm PAPERPE0PLE darling, n0 t0psh0p. 1 great w0man b0ught stuff c0st $70+. l0ve eu, wh0evr u may b. s0me hunkalici0us cust0mers left their c0ntacts but i've j0tted dem dwn in d fauna bk. s0ri, im taken fr LIFE! werkin al0ne, s0 rather enj0yin.. made frens wif m0re staffs. bubbly bunch.. s0me 0ffered 2 buy me f0od, drinks & faggies! c0ol..
had l0ts 0f cryin g0in 0n wif me.. since d 12n0on til i rch h0me. kept hearing l0ve s0ngs dat reminds me 0f hiim! felt guilty th0u but i've f0und a s0luti0n. hectic day.. he's 0n my mind like 24/7. evry lil ting reminds me 0f him. h0ney, pls call. i misz eu greatly.. i d0. really. wishing im in ur arms rite n0w, u kissed me & sayin u misz me t0o. h0w i wished. my spirits are dampen rite n0w. i've n0 strength but i'll endure c0s i hav faith in US! went h0me wif hakeem.. ha! made me giggle a lil s0 ya.. dats it fr 2 day. i'll publish it tmr since d bl0g webbie's c0nnecti0n l0w... save it as draft 1st. nites pe0ple..
"some people will work things out
and some just don't know how to change
lets not wait till the water runs dry
we might watch our whole lives pass us by
lets not wait till the water runs dry
we'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
dont do it,baby
now they can see the tears in our eyes
but we deny the pain that lies
deep in our hearts
well maybe thats a pain we cant hide
why do we hurt each other so much?"
s0ri i've ever misunderst0od u.. im ap0logise. making dis clear dat i dun wana break d chemistry dat we hav. seri0usly, im praying fr wats best fr us.. i kn0w u d0 t0o.. h0pe ur decisi0n prevails.. ):
This is Love, right?
10:19 pm
i dun0 wat im supp0sed 2 resp0nse t0 watevr we jus c0nverse 0n d ph0ne. im t0o stunned ): i appauled by wat jus happen, let me rewind.. he said,' lets n0t c0ntact fr a week..' wat? h0w d0 u assumed i cud c0pe wif dis? ): i cant help it. its like g0in thru t0o much c0mplusi0n. my heart cant take it.. dun feel like g0in 2 werk rite n0w )): my intuiti0ns wer rite.. we need 2 break free frm each 0ther but.. n0t c0ntacting fr a WEEK!! im f0rl0rn. i need eu bie.. pls. i cant bear n0t 2 c0ntact u fr a week. even a sec i cant endure..
are eu fr real?.. u'r like my endless 0bsessi0n. i've best0wed my undying l0ve up0n u al0ne.. n0 else hav managed 2 stray me away frm euu.. when im afraid l0sing gr0und & my w0rld's g0n crazy.. u make me hav faith dat evrytings g0na change wif u ard.. ur l0ve has been d m0st amazing ting dat has evr happen 2 me. it's inspired me 2 strive fr my dreams.. i kn0w dat watevr i d0, i'll hav u by my side.. i turned 2 u wenevr im in need. pls.. im sheding tears as if its d end 0f d universe. cant help it, i dun0 wat i'll d0 with0ut u.. ):
mayb we mit t0o 0ften.. d evryday c0nversati0ns, t0o much 0f dat. i'd d0 anyting jus as l0ng as u dun disappear frm a week. it grieving.. we'll werk tings 0ut. i assure u.. i dun0 h0w but i'll tink 0f a s0luti0n. i cant b apart frm u.. u'r t0o preci0us. hais.. i gtg b g0ing. my relatives are 0ver at my place 2 c'brate haziqah's bdae & my nenek stayin 0ver t0o. shud l0ok happy in frnt 0f dem.. i'll try. btw, im writing dis at 1:36pm. get it published at night.. )):
are eu fr real?.. u'r like my endless 0bsessi0n. i've best0wed my undying l0ve up0n u al0ne.. n0 else hav managed 2 stray me away frm euu.. when im afraid l0sing gr0und & my w0rld's g0n crazy.. u make me hav faith dat evrytings g0na change wif u ard.. ur l0ve has been d m0st amazing ting dat has evr happen 2 me. it's inspired me 2 strive fr my dreams.. i kn0w dat watevr i d0, i'll hav u by my side.. i turned 2 u wenevr im in need. pls.. im sheding tears as if its d end 0f d universe. cant help it, i dun0 wat i'll d0 with0ut u.. ):
mayb we mit t0o 0ften.. d evryday c0nversati0ns, t0o much 0f dat. i'd d0 anyting jus as l0ng as u dun disappear frm a week. it grieving.. we'll werk tings 0ut. i assure u.. i dun0 h0w but i'll tink 0f a s0luti0n. i cant b apart frm u.. u'r t0o preci0us. hais.. i gtg b g0ing. my relatives are 0ver at my place 2 c'brate haziqah's bdae & my nenek stayin 0ver t0o. shud l0ok happy in frnt 0f dem.. i'll try. btw, im writing dis at 1:36pm. get it published at night.. )):
This is Love, right?
Saturday 20 January 2007
11:49 pm
l0ved 2day 2 d max.. its like 1 0f my recent best day evr :) 1st day at w0rk, da kena kacau by farhan supervis0r. n0t farhan jackass k?.. paperpe0ple, based in t0psh0p. l0ve it seyy.. d staffs wer frenly & d guys wer darlings. aww.. dey b0ught fr me drinks c0s i didnt wana eat. s0 shwiit esp hanis. i l0iike him d m0st. his my deary.. i met an0ther farhan. its md khairi farhan.. suave l0oking guy but skinny. damn! ders like s0 many malay der but i was wrking wif intan, etty's skulmate. haha!! she's 0k2 la..
based der frm 2-10pm, standing d wh0le time & didnt g0 fr break. hungry but maintain. d wh0le day was m0re like chatting sessi0ns wif d staffs, h0w 2 punch d stupid kad & wer 2 scan items. d n0teb0oks wer d b0mb! intan kept t0king 2 her frens.. darns. s0 afra bump int0 me & she was wif AMIRUL SYAFIQ!! amira's abg.. hah! wat a sh0ck i had. indie?! n0t bad. xchange num wif practicali evry0ne der m0st impt, d hunks. dey ad0re me, i l0ve dem :))
farhan supervis0r came back 0nli ard 9pm aft aband0nin us.. we wrap stuffs fr s0me american, bcame a part time cust0mer svc & entertain pe0ple. i enj0yed it s0 much. cuci mata, dats fr sure. l0tsa h0ttie sia.. sape tk tgk? hee~ i mad s0 many frens in 1 day & ive add new members 2 my fanclub. yipee!! i assure u dat dey'r hawt. interested parties pls beep me.. (: great tings happen 2day dat its s0 much 2 menti0n. finali felt al0t happier 2day.. hah! laugh & giggle like i always d0. im l0st fr w0rds. jus l0ved 2day s0 much.
based der frm 2-10pm, standing d wh0le time & didnt g0 fr break. hungry but maintain. d wh0le day was m0re like chatting sessi0ns wif d staffs, h0w 2 punch d stupid kad & wer 2 scan items. d n0teb0oks wer d b0mb! intan kept t0king 2 her frens.. darns. s0 afra bump int0 me & she was wif AMIRUL SYAFIQ!! amira's abg.. hah! wat a sh0ck i had. indie?! n0t bad. xchange num wif practicali evry0ne der m0st impt, d hunks. dey ad0re me, i l0ve dem :))
farhan supervis0r came back 0nli ard 9pm aft aband0nin us.. we wrap stuffs fr s0me american, bcame a part time cust0mer svc & entertain pe0ple. i enj0yed it s0 much. cuci mata, dats fr sure. l0tsa h0ttie sia.. sape tk tgk? hee~ i mad s0 many frens in 1 day & ive add new members 2 my fanclub. yipee!! i assure u dat dey'r hawt. interested parties pls beep me.. (: great tings happen 2day dat its s0 much 2 menti0n. finali felt al0t happier 2day.. hah! laugh & giggle like i always d0. im l0st fr w0rds. jus l0ved 2day s0 much.
This is Love, right?
Friday 19 January 2007
11:50 pm
like wat d hell.. y is he being s0 iritating lately. cant stand it.. 1stly, he came 40min LATE!! 0mg! i had 2 wait at d bl0ody intrchange til i had headache tks 2 d sc0rching sun & HIM! da lmbt den tk tau nk terus mintak maaf.. can still smile at me like n0thing happen plak. thk g0d i l0ve him, klau tak da kene maki rabak rabak seyy.. if u kn0w u'r g0na b late, leave ur h0use earlier la.. c0mm0n sense rite?..
pissed 0ff at him & he still want me 2 eat. n0 appetite. head spinnign like mad & my thr0at feels nausea. urghh! he b0ught f0od at LJS & sat at d staircase 2 mkn. sweet c0s he fed me evnth0u i didnt want 2. f0rced me 2 eat c0s he's afraid dat i might puke but he kept iritating me & licking my hand, shirt, jeans. digusting. im super petrified by his bhavi0ur. like s0me psych0path. scary.. dis aint my dear. acting s0 weird. did i pick d wr0ng guy?.. seri0usly, s0metimes i tink s0. err.. perhaps im giving him pressure.. ): wel, he did massage my neck. (:
he l0oks usual jus d bhavi0ur & d way im being treated is s0 diff frm d way im treated last time. i want d 0ld hiim. nak kate aku beruba, entah lak tapi dier, memang terang terang dier beruba. i dun0 la.. up 2 u 2 change.. i'll help wherever p0ssible. hais.. cant explain h0w crushed im feeling rite n0w. wel, apply fr j0b at tangs. walked ard viv0 b4 heading h0me. bump int0 his girl fren, switl0oking. l0ve her makeup but super kec0h.
b0ard d bus wif him c0s i miss ST MARG'S. can u belive dat?! i cant. in d bus, he was a darling. being such a cutie pie. l0ved d j0urney c0s we laughed abt d american id0l.. funny like hell. he cried while laughing. s0 CUTE!sent him til intrchnge. hah! in d bus kena caught by c0nduct0r, had 2 pay $1.50. fuck! watevr. b0ard train til gmbk, t0ok 945.. wen i alight, saw 3 dark figures. banglas? n0p, MALAYS. haha! mistaken. da la gelap mcm keling, nk gangu aku plak.. tk tau da kul 11:43?.. idi0ts. i rch h0me, talk 2 him & ri0t went 0n undr my blk. kec0h! stupid abg again & braders..
i did enj0y d day, partly i guess. n0t enj0ying as much as h0w i used 2 treasure evry m0ments wif him during d past yr..dats it, aint n0 m0od. i cant figure 0ut y he change.. i need d 0ld him.. i w0nder h0w l0ng i can bear d new him. lets wait & see h0w far it g0es. fr n0w, pe0ple.. help me pray fr him 2 change pls?.. i need HIM back.. n0t dis current guy wh0se character i simply cant undrstand. like a chamele0n, changes within split sec0nds. damn la. cant help it.. i'll wait n0 matter wat.. pray fr me. )): hey, but i aint letting eu g0. l0ve u t0o much..
pissed 0ff at him & he still want me 2 eat. n0 appetite. head spinnign like mad & my thr0at feels nausea. urghh! he b0ught f0od at LJS & sat at d staircase 2 mkn. sweet c0s he fed me evnth0u i didnt want 2. f0rced me 2 eat c0s he's afraid dat i might puke but he kept iritating me & licking my hand, shirt, jeans. digusting. im super petrified by his bhavi0ur. like s0me psych0path. scary.. dis aint my dear. acting s0 weird. did i pick d wr0ng guy?.. seri0usly, s0metimes i tink s0. err.. perhaps im giving him pressure.. ): wel, he did massage my neck. (:
he l0oks usual jus d bhavi0ur & d way im being treated is s0 diff frm d way im treated last time. i want d 0ld hiim. nak kate aku beruba, entah lak tapi dier, memang terang terang dier beruba. i dun0 la.. up 2 u 2 change.. i'll help wherever p0ssible. hais.. cant explain h0w crushed im feeling rite n0w. wel, apply fr j0b at tangs. walked ard viv0 b4 heading h0me. bump int0 his girl fren, switl0oking. l0ve her makeup but super kec0h.
b0ard d bus wif him c0s i miss ST MARG'S. can u belive dat?! i cant. in d bus, he was a darling. being such a cutie pie. l0ved d j0urney c0s we laughed abt d american id0l.. funny like hell. he cried while laughing. s0 CUTE!sent him til intrchnge. hah! in d bus kena caught by c0nduct0r, had 2 pay $1.50. fuck! watevr. b0ard train til gmbk, t0ok 945.. wen i alight, saw 3 dark figures. banglas? n0p, MALAYS. haha! mistaken. da la gelap mcm keling, nk gangu aku plak.. tk tau da kul 11:43?.. idi0ts. i rch h0me, talk 2 him & ri0t went 0n undr my blk. kec0h! stupid abg again & braders..
i did enj0y d day, partly i guess. n0t enj0ying as much as h0w i used 2 treasure evry m0ments wif him during d past yr..dats it, aint n0 m0od. i cant figure 0ut y he change.. i need d 0ld him.. i w0nder h0w l0ng i can bear d new him. lets wait & see h0w far it g0es. fr n0w, pe0ple.. help me pray fr him 2 change pls?.. i need HIM back.. n0t dis current guy wh0se character i simply cant undrstand. like a chamele0n, changes within split sec0nds. damn la. cant help it.. i'll wait n0 matter wat.. pray fr me. )): hey, but i aint letting eu g0. l0ve u t0o much..
This is Love, right?
Wednesday 17 January 2007
12:32 am
t0day is 1 0f d f0nd mem0ries dat i'll cherish wif him (: its seri0usly fun. wel, it was supp0sed 2 b a surprise but i guess it c0rrectly. many guys, wear red/white, speak like ind0n & kallang. 0bvi0us dat ders g0na b a match at d stadium. durh!! d last time i wen der was in sec3 c0s my fren's frm y0ung li0ns. l0ve d enthusiasm. guys rawks wen it c0mes 2 s0ccer. u'll learn m0re abt their character..
picked me up & acc0mpany me 2 d d0c. saw ally & frens at d buzstp. he RMBR me! h0w sh0cking.. uwee~ sum freak bl0w kisses at me. retard! nvm. aft g0in 2 d d0c, t0ok 106. plan 2 g0 t0wn but as usual we d0nt f0llow 0ur plan. tweehee~1stly, he l0oks hawt in d shades. haha! listen bie, i said it,'U L0OK HAWWTT!!' muahaha! rch millenia walk, g0t a lil l0st but f0und 0ur way 2 LJS 2 mkn. his treat again )): wen izit g0na b my turn? hmpff.
scan thru candy empire, d ch0cs wer 2 die f0r. ate at 0ur 0wn swit time b4 g0in ard marina sq. wind0wsh0ppe, b0ught a headband & tried 0ut d 0ther acces0ries. miSz d b0hemian bands, i l0st mine. he said i l0ok great. yeah rite. i l0ok fab0lously g0rge0us! w0oho0~k da perasan. (: den we had 2 g0 2 d stadium. quite near. wel, did d unexpected. s0me 0range drink dat cant b named. rmbr bie, 1st & last. u play me 0ut i'll leave ya f0r g0od.
walk til kallang & argue abt my past. he didnt rmbr d tings i t0ld him wen we jus knew each 0ther. quite iritated c0s he g0t d details jumbled up. hate eu! i mean it. u made me upset. it drizzled. luckly, i had umbrella. well, i cant stay upset wif him fr l0ng s0 i chill dwn. he kept c0axin me. 0n d kallang bridge, we made hist0ry. we made many kiss hist0ry b4.. rch d stadium & it st0p raining fr a while. wen we wer buying d tickets it beat d0wn like thunder. s0aked.
grand stand. i was freezing c0ld. d match was terrible.. referee kayu! dat s0und dumb but d adrenaline dat d spectat0rs had can seri0usly cause cha0s. great cr0wd. saw my uncle, abg izam! hide/cam0uflage. he didnt see me i tink. hunz was like super anxi0us til he had sweaty palms. funny, he's such a darling. shud see h0w c0nstipated he l0ok wen d team nearly sc0red & h0w deranged he l0ok wen dey didnt. he kept cursing.. hate dat part.
its a draw.. b0th made it 2 d AFC s0 it was fine. ind0n smue kene maki, kekek. walked 2 d buzstp, he sent me h0me. its alrdy 10+. didnt cuci mata.. t0o engr0sSed in my hubby & d match. 0uh man! wasted sia.. c0nfirm al0t 0f h0tties. i l0oiike.. at d buzstp, saw my pri sch fren. his fren is a fren 0f my h0ney. a nati0nal player.. saw muhaimin, cik ani's s0n. haha! in d bus we chat like usual & jus stare at each 0ther f0r n0 rhyme 0r reas0n. hah! bt btk, kissed gdbye & he's 0ff h0me. he's a pain sumtimes but cant deny dat i d0 l0ve him still.. hearts hiim.
picked me up & acc0mpany me 2 d d0c. saw ally & frens at d buzstp. he RMBR me! h0w sh0cking.. uwee~ sum freak bl0w kisses at me. retard! nvm. aft g0in 2 d d0c, t0ok 106. plan 2 g0 t0wn but as usual we d0nt f0llow 0ur plan. tweehee~1stly, he l0oks hawt in d shades. haha! listen bie, i said it,'U L0OK HAWWTT!!' muahaha! rch millenia walk, g0t a lil l0st but f0und 0ur way 2 LJS 2 mkn. his treat again )): wen izit g0na b my turn? hmpff.
scan thru candy empire, d ch0cs wer 2 die f0r. ate at 0ur 0wn swit time b4 g0in ard marina sq. wind0wsh0ppe, b0ught a headband & tried 0ut d 0ther acces0ries. miSz d b0hemian bands, i l0st mine. he said i l0ok great. yeah rite. i l0ok fab0lously g0rge0us! w0oho0~k da perasan. (: den we had 2 g0 2 d stadium. quite near. wel, did d unexpected. s0me 0range drink dat cant b named. rmbr bie, 1st & last. u play me 0ut i'll leave ya f0r g0od.
walk til kallang & argue abt my past. he didnt rmbr d tings i t0ld him wen we jus knew each 0ther. quite iritated c0s he g0t d details jumbled up. hate eu! i mean it. u made me upset. it drizzled. luckly, i had umbrella. well, i cant stay upset wif him fr l0ng s0 i chill dwn. he kept c0axin me. 0n d kallang bridge, we made hist0ry. we made many kiss hist0ry b4.. rch d stadium & it st0p raining fr a while. wen we wer buying d tickets it beat d0wn like thunder. s0aked.
grand stand. i was freezing c0ld. d match was terrible.. referee kayu! dat s0und dumb but d adrenaline dat d spectat0rs had can seri0usly cause cha0s. great cr0wd. saw my uncle, abg izam! hide/cam0uflage. he didnt see me i tink. hunz was like super anxi0us til he had sweaty palms. funny, he's such a darling. shud see h0w c0nstipated he l0ok wen d team nearly sc0red & h0w deranged he l0ok wen dey didnt. he kept cursing.. hate dat part.
its a draw.. b0th made it 2 d AFC s0 it was fine. ind0n smue kene maki, kekek. walked 2 d buzstp, he sent me h0me. its alrdy 10+. didnt cuci mata.. t0o engr0sSed in my hubby & d match. 0uh man! wasted sia.. c0nfirm al0t 0f h0tties. i l0oiike.. at d buzstp, saw my pri sch fren. his fren is a fren 0f my h0ney. a nati0nal player.. saw muhaimin, cik ani's s0n. haha! in d bus we chat like usual & jus stare at each 0ther f0r n0 rhyme 0r reas0n. hah! bt btk, kissed gdbye & he's 0ff h0me. he's a pain sumtimes but cant deny dat i d0 l0ve him still.. hearts hiim.
This is Love, right?
Tuesday 16 January 2007
10:20 pm
hunz.. jus a lil smth i came up wif.. h0pe u'll like it ((: im b0red & i jus finished talkin 2 faiz & elfi.. (: l0ve ya.. t0odles. if u've read, tag me k?.. used d name hunz s0 i kn0w its euu!!
when im with you, eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow, with each passing day.
this treasure of love, i'll cherish within my soul,
how much i love you.. u'll never really know.
you bring a joy to my heart, i've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand, i love you more and more.
whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part,
know i hold you dearly, deep inside my heart.
so these seven words, i pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always, I Will Love You."
tks bie.. l0ve eu l0ads! muacks. :X
when im with you, eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow, with each passing day.
this treasure of love, i'll cherish within my soul,
how much i love you.. u'll never really know.
you bring a joy to my heart, i've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand, i love you more and more.
whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part,
know i hold you dearly, deep inside my heart.
so these seven words, i pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always, I Will Love You."
tks bie.. l0ve eu l0ads! muacks. :X
This is Love, right?
8:39 pm
haha. updati0n 2 yesterday's meetup. ((: s0ri hunz but its funny. ur leg hair grew! u'r a MAN n0w! whakakaka.. funny la bie. i still l0ve euu.. it felt s0 great meeting eu yesterday evnth0u its fr a while & der isnt anyting special. btw, cant wait fr tmr's surprise. l0ved. tell me la.. i nak tau seyy.. hint hint ke?.. i pity elfi. he g0t drunk dis m0rning. get well s0on ya br0? dun hang0ver 0r anyting. )): g0t me scared..
haha. yaya msged me. lame la d msgs but funny stuff.. i was t0o tired 2 rply c0s its 3am. futherm0re, i chat wif zul til 2+ c0s my hp's recepti0n was l0w. damn la.. al0ng d way, my hunz called t0o aft he fell aslp. shwiit.. 2day was c0ol.. w0ke up at 9:26am, had a piece 0f prata & sh0wered. i didnt wana b late fr d intrview. pr0mise na0mi i'd b early.. my hunz called me using his granny's hp. chat fr awhile.. s0 i rush 0ff 2 mit na0mi. i rch tanj0ng pgr at 12pm but supp0sed 2 mit at 12:30pm.
thk g0d na0mi rush quickly.. :) we went 2 d Henca c0mpany. had d intrview, der was dis guy frm team republic. hawtt indian. aft dat acc0mpany na0mi g0 mkn den i t0ok bus 2 0rchard fr d paperpe0ple tingy. i c0llect d cheque frm mauren & g0 2 m0unt elizabeth 2 bank in d cheque at UOB. called up farhan frm paperpe0ple 2 change d timing fr d intrview. its at fareast #03-81.. haha! its d n0tebk sh0ppie. dat farhan is skinny & tall.. specky, he's swhiit & he likes me!
aft d intrview, i went wind0wsh0ppin in fareast.. b4 heading h0me 0n 106. yawn!~ i c0llected l0tsa numbers & an email frm a nigga. hunks! nah! i l0ve my hubby & him 0nly.. i ditched d rest. s0ri dudes.. he st0le my heart. (: jgn kembang tau bie! keke.. haha.. talkin 2 my dearest, he s0unds quite sick. aww.. flu stinks! it makes him & me ill.. nvm. we'll meet tmr & dat'll make us well. l0ve eu hunz.
haha. yaya msged me. lame la d msgs but funny stuff.. i was t0o tired 2 rply c0s its 3am. futherm0re, i chat wif zul til 2+ c0s my hp's recepti0n was l0w. damn la.. al0ng d way, my hunz called t0o aft he fell aslp. shwiit.. 2day was c0ol.. w0ke up at 9:26am, had a piece 0f prata & sh0wered. i didnt wana b late fr d intrview. pr0mise na0mi i'd b early.. my hunz called me using his granny's hp. chat fr awhile.. s0 i rush 0ff 2 mit na0mi. i rch tanj0ng pgr at 12pm but supp0sed 2 mit at 12:30pm.
thk g0d na0mi rush quickly.. :) we went 2 d Henca c0mpany. had d intrview, der was dis guy frm team republic. hawtt indian. aft dat acc0mpany na0mi g0 mkn den i t0ok bus 2 0rchard fr d paperpe0ple tingy. i c0llect d cheque frm mauren & g0 2 m0unt elizabeth 2 bank in d cheque at UOB. called up farhan frm paperpe0ple 2 change d timing fr d intrview. its at fareast #03-81.. haha! its d n0tebk sh0ppie. dat farhan is skinny & tall.. specky, he's swhiit & he likes me!
aft d intrview, i went wind0wsh0ppin in fareast.. b4 heading h0me 0n 106. yawn!~ i c0llected l0tsa numbers & an email frm a nigga. hunks! nah! i l0ve my hubby & him 0nly.. i ditched d rest. s0ri dudes.. he st0le my heart. (: jgn kembang tau bie! keke.. haha.. talkin 2 my dearest, he s0unds quite sick. aww.. flu stinks! it makes him & me ill.. nvm. we'll meet tmr & dat'll make us well. l0ve eu hunz.
This is Love, right?
Monday 15 January 2007
11:05 pm
0osyd0sy.. im 0ld n0w bc0s i hav 2 use d adult fare. shucks! k watevr. met my bf at ys mrt but he wasnt alert theref0re, my train left with0ut him. he made me alight at khatib & take d nxt train.. hais. fine, d upsetting part was d fact i dat s0me mats in d last cabin wer flirting wif me. err.. i dun0 h0w 2 c0mment 0n dem. thank g0d d train dat he was in wasnt cr0wded wif mats except fr d 0fficers. saw naszril, my akk sdare's guyfren. hawwtt.. i ad0re thee.
my darls is such a cutie.. misz him l0ads. finali felt like i was in d angel's arms wen he hugged & kissed me. sultryfied pleasure. haha! cant get enuff 0f him. g0sh! pimples i say.. l0tsa dem. 0mg! nightmare. wel, at least its fading 0ff frm his face.. aww.. patience h0ney. it'll g0 away s0on enuff. ((: trust me k dear?.. had 2 mit 0ur dear fren aft his prac s0 we wen 2 bugis 2 get his lil sis a bdae prezzie. such a sweet thang. shades. l0ving them. d vintage 0ne. ad0rati0n..
aft walking abt bugis, we settled fr c0conut. haha! i failed at peeling. hmpff! teach me darling.. teach me! aft dat, we finish d drink & to0k a bus 2 n0vena. haha! we kid ard in d bus.. lame stuff. he did smth digusting, he t0ok a sweet lick it a c0uple 0f times b4 stuffin it in my m0uth! ass xia. i ate it 0f c0s.. he f0und it funny s0 i punch him & pretend 2 laugh. den i said,' hah!funny..' wif a n0n em0ti0nal face. hah! dumbness. rch n0vena & head 2 mcCafe & i g0t bullied again. argh! hate eu..
sat & chat awhile wif 0ur fren, t0ok l0tsa pics 2gether. me & hiim! chat til ard 8pm b4 we b0ught s0tongs frm 0ld chang kee. uuwee~ wait fr 851 & head 0ff 2 ys c0s i need 2 change bus 2 bt btk.. in d bus, he was such a m0ron. c0mmentin 0n s0me chinese chic's b0obies. gr0sS!!.. cudnt b b0thered 2 entertain a sick0. dammit eu. jerk! 2 tink dat u'r my bf. it makes it w0rst. damn eu.. rch ys, went 2 nrthpt fr awhile b4 i head fr 852. he cudnt send me h0me c0s he had 2 b h0me by 10pm..
haha.. 2 bad. :P i hate my makeup 2day.. its h0rrend0us. but i l0ok awes0me. syi0k sendiri katekan. haha!! bumped int0 al0t of his frens at nrthpt.. wel, i t0ok d bus & der wer l0ts 0f mats wh0 b0arded at amk. dey jus finished dey'r sepak takraw & dey kept disturbing me. k, im iritated. dats it. im 0ff 2 talk 2 my jerkiesh bf. 0ff idi0ts!..
my darls is such a cutie.. misz him l0ads. finali felt like i was in d angel's arms wen he hugged & kissed me. sultryfied pleasure. haha! cant get enuff 0f him. g0sh! pimples i say.. l0tsa dem. 0mg! nightmare. wel, at least its fading 0ff frm his face.. aww.. patience h0ney. it'll g0 away s0on enuff. ((: trust me k dear?.. had 2 mit 0ur dear fren aft his prac s0 we wen 2 bugis 2 get his lil sis a bdae prezzie. such a sweet thang. shades. l0ving them. d vintage 0ne. ad0rati0n..
aft walking abt bugis, we settled fr c0conut. haha! i failed at peeling. hmpff! teach me darling.. teach me! aft dat, we finish d drink & to0k a bus 2 n0vena. haha! we kid ard in d bus.. lame stuff. he did smth digusting, he t0ok a sweet lick it a c0uple 0f times b4 stuffin it in my m0uth! ass xia. i ate it 0f c0s.. he f0und it funny s0 i punch him & pretend 2 laugh. den i said,' hah!funny..' wif a n0n em0ti0nal face. hah! dumbness. rch n0vena & head 2 mcCafe & i g0t bullied again. argh! hate eu..
sat & chat awhile wif 0ur fren, t0ok l0tsa pics 2gether. me & hiim! chat til ard 8pm b4 we b0ught s0tongs frm 0ld chang kee. uuwee~ wait fr 851 & head 0ff 2 ys c0s i need 2 change bus 2 bt btk.. in d bus, he was such a m0ron. c0mmentin 0n s0me chinese chic's b0obies. gr0sS!!.. cudnt b b0thered 2 entertain a sick0. dammit eu. jerk! 2 tink dat u'r my bf. it makes it w0rst. damn eu.. rch ys, went 2 nrthpt fr awhile b4 i head fr 852. he cudnt send me h0me c0s he had 2 b h0me by 10pm..
haha.. 2 bad. :P i hate my makeup 2day.. its h0rrend0us. but i l0ok awes0me. syi0k sendiri katekan. haha!! bumped int0 al0t of his frens at nrthpt.. wel, i t0ok d bus & der wer l0ts 0f mats wh0 b0arded at amk. dey jus finished dey'r sepak takraw & dey kept disturbing me. k, im iritated. dats it. im 0ff 2 talk 2 my jerkiesh bf. 0ff idi0ts!..
This is Love, right?
2:15 pm
lovely. stayed h0me again yesterday.. i tink im bc0ming a h0me-girl. whakaka!! aint g0nna hapen. unless im married den it'll b h0usewife. haha! im s0 g0nna plead my hubby 2 let me w0rk.. unless my tummy g0es b0om! lame stuff huh? s0ri, jus g0t nuts all 0f a sudden. mayb meeting my h0ney scumpkin later. 0olla..
haha. i talked 2 my dearest til 2am dis m0rning. he was tired but jus didnt wana admit. c'm0n darling, i kn0w u wana sleep rite? but u pretending c0s im n0t sleepy. k la, fr ur sake.. nxt time i sleep earlier k?.. kecian dier. haha! wel, we didnt chat much except d reas0n 2 y we havent meet in a wk?!! hah! dats l0ng.. usuali within a few days we wud have met up but due 2 pers0nal c0mmitments, we have 2 p0stp0ned 0ur meet ups. ): but its 0k.. we'll hang 0n as l0ng as we have each 0ther.
0k.. supp0sed 2 b his turn 2 hangup but he made me d0 it. unfair! hmpff! dun like eu.. bully me evrytime. but.. i l0ve eu. :P aft sayin all d gdbyes, i hang up. i t0ss, turn & bump 0n d bed but cudnt sleep. ard 2:22am, zulfadly sent me a gdnight msg. i rply since i was awake & he decide 2 call. s0 i ended up chattin wif him til 5am.. he starts sch at 10am but he d0esnt wana sleep. we talked & laughed abt 0ur silly antics back during pri sch. he's changed. d v0ice? n0t much 0f a difference.
fancy d ting dat we used 2 crush 0n each 0ther. haha! puppyl0ve. infactuati0n. he's a cutie. talked abt khafi & d br0ken to0th. syazni, hamdi, shazril, eliza, d twins amirul, etc. f0nd mem0ries. we t0t 0f meeting up but n0t sure wen.. a great BIG reuni0n wif 0ur pri sch mates. dat'll b fantastic. anticipating. b0th 0f us didnt feel like puttin d0wn d ph0ne.. t0o engr0ssed wif d c0nversati0n. we didnt realise dat d time flies s0 fast. haha!.. sweet nuff. wel, dats it, i tink, f0r n0w & i l0ve my bf. he's d greatest. hearts eu l0ads!..
haha. i talked 2 my dearest til 2am dis m0rning. he was tired but jus didnt wana admit. c'm0n darling, i kn0w u wana sleep rite? but u pretending c0s im n0t sleepy. k la, fr ur sake.. nxt time i sleep earlier k?.. kecian dier. haha! wel, we didnt chat much except d reas0n 2 y we havent meet in a wk?!! hah! dats l0ng.. usuali within a few days we wud have met up but due 2 pers0nal c0mmitments, we have 2 p0stp0ned 0ur meet ups. ): but its 0k.. we'll hang 0n as l0ng as we have each 0ther.
0k.. supp0sed 2 b his turn 2 hangup but he made me d0 it. unfair! hmpff! dun like eu.. bully me evrytime. but.. i l0ve eu. :P aft sayin all d gdbyes, i hang up. i t0ss, turn & bump 0n d bed but cudnt sleep. ard 2:22am, zulfadly sent me a gdnight msg. i rply since i was awake & he decide 2 call. s0 i ended up chattin wif him til 5am.. he starts sch at 10am but he d0esnt wana sleep. we talked & laughed abt 0ur silly antics back during pri sch. he's changed. d v0ice? n0t much 0f a difference.
fancy d ting dat we used 2 crush 0n each 0ther. haha! puppyl0ve. infactuati0n. he's a cutie. talked abt khafi & d br0ken to0th. syazni, hamdi, shazril, eliza, d twins amirul, etc. f0nd mem0ries. we t0t 0f meeting up but n0t sure wen.. a great BIG reuni0n wif 0ur pri sch mates. dat'll b fantastic. anticipating. b0th 0f us didnt feel like puttin d0wn d ph0ne.. t0o engr0ssed wif d c0nversati0n. we didnt realise dat d time flies s0 fast. haha!.. sweet nuff. wel, dats it, i tink, f0r n0w & i l0ve my bf. he's d greatest. hearts eu l0ads!..
This is Love, right?
Sunday 14 January 2007
9:31 pm
0uh shwiit.. we wer talkin abt wat we did t0day & h0w miserable i felt c0s i have sex maniacs bugging my hp. fuck u assh0les! gimme my life. i aint a part 0f eu s0 dun bug me 0r i'll b nasty. err.. except 2 my bf, i'd b nice 2 hiim. he's my darling. if any0ne hurts him, i'd break their neck. haha! jk.
i s0o0oo need 2 change my hp number siax. its making me hyperventilate! urgh! nightmares within d ph0ne call 0n my hp. all d want is SEX!! i aint cheap. i've nvr d0ne it & planning n0t 2 until im hitched. want a cheap0 g0 2 md sultan 0r geylang. dey'r cheap & l0ose. dammit! u guys are ridicul0us. havent u g0t any brain cells.
back 2 my c0nversati0n wif my h0ney.. its ard 8pm i tink. i jus quite w0ke up frm my slumber tks 2 all th0se iritating freak0s. t0ld hiim dat my fren na0mi, 0ffered me a j0b at s0ny & salbiah 0ffered me a j0b at f0rever 21. hurray! wel, he jus came h0me aft having dinner wif his family. aww.. i did n0thing at all except fr situps, jumpy jumping jacks, d shitified burpies. exhausted i was. we didnt talked fr l0ng c0s he went 2 bite 0n s0me pizza in d kitchen. haha! my bf is s0 g0na bc0me a fatty p0o. muahaha! i w0nt leave eu even if u'r fat. hehe.. m0nkey dear. l0ve ya.
i s0o0oo need 2 change my hp number siax. its making me hyperventilate! urgh! nightmares within d ph0ne call 0n my hp. all d want is SEX!! i aint cheap. i've nvr d0ne it & planning n0t 2 until im hitched. want a cheap0 g0 2 md sultan 0r geylang. dey'r cheap & l0ose. dammit! u guys are ridicul0us. havent u g0t any brain cells.
back 2 my c0nversati0n wif my h0ney.. its ard 8pm i tink. i jus quite w0ke up frm my slumber tks 2 all th0se iritating freak0s. t0ld hiim dat my fren na0mi, 0ffered me a j0b at s0ny & salbiah 0ffered me a j0b at f0rever 21. hurray! wel, he jus came h0me aft having dinner wif his family. aww.. i did n0thing at all except fr situps, jumpy jumping jacks, d shitified burpies. exhausted i was. we didnt talked fr l0ng c0s he went 2 bite 0n s0me pizza in d kitchen. haha! my bf is s0 g0na bc0me a fatty p0o. muahaha! i w0nt leave eu even if u'r fat. hehe.. m0nkey dear. l0ve ya.
This is Love, right?
12:42 pm
hah! we finali figured 0ut wats d pr0b dats been haunting us.. lame but its bc0s we care abt each 0ther t0o much dat we dare n0t tell dem dat dey'r d0in smth wr0ng. s0metimes, we 0verpleased each 0ther til it bc0mes a nuisance. its dumb, i kn0w. we changed evrsince d 1st 0f jan. mayb we wer s0 used being frens & d sudden change hit 0n us.. wel, at least we d0 kn0w y n0w.
but i assure u dat dis w0nt end c0s it'll keep happening again & again. its s0 hard 2 tell ur l0ved 0ne dat dey'r d0in smth wr0ng bc0s u'r afraid dat u might hurt their feelings badly. s0 basicali, u'r stuck in a situati0n 0f either 2 take 0r leave. it sucks badly. c0s im l0ving him t0o much dat i cant bear 2 see him hurting 0r unhappy. if he is, it feels like i didnt d0 my j0b well. i l0ve hiim. s0 so much.. at times, i put him b4 myself. i'd rather suffer dat 2 see him hurt.
h0ney.. h0pe u'll undrstnd.. i wana save dis r'ship badly. i dun want it 2 g0 d0wn d drain. aft all d c0mplicati0ns we wen thru.. i trust dat u dun want us 2 b separated rite?.. its 0k. i pr0mise u dat we shall have a 0ne 2 0ne c0nversati0n & we wil deal wif dis pr0b k?.. n0 matter h0w l0ng it takes, im n0t g0nna give up 0n u easily. i've given u my pr0mise. (:
but i assure u dat dis w0nt end c0s it'll keep happening again & again. its s0 hard 2 tell ur l0ved 0ne dat dey'r d0in smth wr0ng bc0s u'r afraid dat u might hurt their feelings badly. s0 basicali, u'r stuck in a situati0n 0f either 2 take 0r leave. it sucks badly. c0s im l0ving him t0o much dat i cant bear 2 see him hurting 0r unhappy. if he is, it feels like i didnt d0 my j0b well. i l0ve hiim. s0 so much.. at times, i put him b4 myself. i'd rather suffer dat 2 see him hurt.
h0ney.. h0pe u'll undrstnd.. i wana save dis r'ship badly. i dun want it 2 g0 d0wn d drain. aft all d c0mplicati0ns we wen thru.. i trust dat u dun want us 2 b separated rite?.. its 0k. i pr0mise u dat we shall have a 0ne 2 0ne c0nversati0n & we wil deal wif dis pr0b k?.. n0 matter h0w l0ng it takes, im n0t g0nna give up 0n u easily. i've given u my pr0mise. (:
This is Love, right?
Saturday 13 January 2007
10:45 pm
haha.. im h0me. yippee! actuali i was alrdy h0me by 10pm. bf called using his fren's hp s0 i called back.. talked 2 him fr awhile abt wat he did wif his fren.. (: dey had s0ccer in d m0rning & it ended late. aww.. wel, i did wait fr him 2 call. hmpff. s0 ya.. he acc0mpany his fren 2 buy s0me gaming stuff. i aint s0 sure. its a guy's ting.. dupe. chat abt wat time is he c0ming h0me & d fact dat dey watch s'p0re match at d stadium. d j0ke was he was $1 sh0rt & d uncle made dem walked a huge r0und. ahaks! wat a pity.
aft dat, i was left talkin 2 his fren.. haha! b0th 0f dem are j0kers. dey crack lame stuff. haha!! we j0ked abt my bf & d reas0n y he's afraid 2 b0ard d G-max. i s0 wana g0 der but he d0esnt want 2. dammit. nvm. i c0ax him s0oner 0r later. ((: yeah me! i talked 2 him til dey rch d mrt stati0n. wel, cudnt chat fr l0ng c0s d c0nnecti0n g0t cut 0ff in d train. nmv. chat again nxt time. gr8 c0nversati0n. :)
aft dat, i was left talkin 2 his fren.. haha! b0th 0f dem are j0kers. dey crack lame stuff. haha!! we j0ked abt my bf & d reas0n y he's afraid 2 b0ard d G-max. i s0 wana g0 der but he d0esnt want 2. dammit. nvm. i c0ax him s0oner 0r later. ((: yeah me! i talked 2 him til dey rch d mrt stati0n. wel, cudnt chat fr l0ng c0s d c0nnecti0n g0t cut 0ff in d train. nmv. chat again nxt time. gr8 c0nversati0n. :)
This is Love, right?
11:32 am
had d greatest c0nference aft a l0ng time.. faiz, farhan & faiz. d 3Fs. haha!.. we all had 0ur 0wn pr0bs s0 we basicali shared 0ver d ph0ne & its been alm0st 2 m0nths since i last hang0ut wif faiz. i misz eu l0ads! ~bang. we talked abt l0ts 0f stuff s0 cant p0ut dem d0wn here.. it'll take pages l0ng 2 type.. ders al0t of changes dat has been g0in 0n. finali, i hear an updati0n 0f yat. he's still wearin d bangle i gave hiim. wat?.. nvm. let him b.. it bel0ngs 2 him aniwae. i gav it f0r his bdae.
we chat abt aisah, elfi, 0urselves.. d nip0ns! damn eu peeps. i misz u guys.. wen we g0nna hang 0ut 2gether again?!! we helped each 0ther s0lve d pr0bs. d 3 0f us had d same pr0b. ab0ut l0ve!! startin 2 hate dat w0rd. ~0opsy! wat d hell.. we chat frm 1am til 3:42am. farhan left at 3:11am c0s he's having s0ccer later. aww.. t0o bad. aft farhan left, faiz help me wif my pr0b. tks br0. tks ya f0rr evryting.. d supp0rt eu gav wen i l0st faith.. c0nvrsati0n ended wen his h0use ph0ne fell & he cudnt call back. nvm. shall c0nt d st0ries later.. l0oking f0rward sia.. yeah! :))
we chat abt aisah, elfi, 0urselves.. d nip0ns! damn eu peeps. i misz u guys.. wen we g0nna hang 0ut 2gether again?!! we helped each 0ther s0lve d pr0bs. d 3 0f us had d same pr0b. ab0ut l0ve!! startin 2 hate dat w0rd. ~0opsy! wat d hell.. we chat frm 1am til 3:42am. farhan left at 3:11am c0s he's having s0ccer later. aww.. t0o bad. aft farhan left, faiz help me wif my pr0b. tks br0. tks ya f0rr evryting.. d supp0rt eu gav wen i l0st faith.. c0nvrsati0n ended wen his h0use ph0ne fell & he cudnt call back. nvm. shall c0nt d st0ries later.. l0oking f0rward sia.. yeah! :))
This is Love, right?
Friday 12 January 2007
10:16 pm
bie.. y are eu sp0iling my m0od lately?.. y are eu acting all weird, s0 unlike urself.. i want d 0ld eu. d exact same guy dat i fell head 0ver heels f0r. wats wr0ng?.. is der smth u wana share?.. pls tel me swthart.. i dun wana b left waiting.. i want d 0ld eu. y d sudden change?.. dis past few days, u kept j0king abt. i dun mind dat but d w0rds eu used wer hurting..
hais.. i went 2 see my granny at SGH. mami was der 1st.. we rch ard 4pm bc0s need 2 pik up my sis.. d shuttle bus g0es r0und & r0und. wee~ can g0 nuts. wel, wen we enter d ward. i was sh0cked 2 c 2 guys der. as wat i kn0w, ders a separati0n btwin d wards. s0on, i f0und 0ut dat dey wer bunks. 1 was gdl0oking & d 0ther was huge! haha! freaky. digusting t0o c0s 1 didnt bathe eventh0ugh she's been in d h0sp f0r 2 days! yucks. imagine d smell. phew! cant bear wif dat.
entertain my nenek.. surprisingly, i didnt mkn d wh0le day! yiipee! diet, like real. i l0ve d bed c0s its m0vable. my sis & i bunk in der.. 0bvi0usly, she'll take ph0tos. urgh! my face l0oks digusting. t0ok pic 0f rani, my granny's new h0sp fren. frenly aunty. basicali, i made frens wif evry0ne in dat ward. frenly bunch. we stayed der til 8pm c0s visitng hrs was 0ver. bade farewell 2 my granny c0s she's g0in h0me tmr. went 2 7/11 c0s my sis wan buy pizza.
d bl0ody 970 came s0 late.. it was packed t0o. i sat bside dis guy in d bus & it turns 0ut 2 b nazria's ex-bf nazrul. hawtt! chat wif him.. he wana exchange num but i suggest dat we shud jus remain msn frens. haha! im g0od ya?.. as if. aft dat, a cute apek sat bside me. h0ney called. talked wif him til bt timah & dats wher he start upsetting me. pls bie.. i hav enuff 2 tink abt. 2 add 0n. i plead euu.. sitting at d buzstp waitin f0r 985W, 75 dr0ve paSs & s0me guys kept l0oking at me smiling. g0rge0usly hawtt but i wasnt in d m0od 2 entertain such n0nsense. i dun0 wats wr0ng wif me?..
menses? cant b.. evnth0ugh im having it. but i dun0 y he's acting strange?.. nuff. i t0t u said u undrstnd me & w0nt make me upset but u did! durh! 0uh bie, pls b d 0ld eu.. im miszing hiim s0 much.. d0 it f0r my sake, d0 it f0r us.. please...
hais.. i went 2 see my granny at SGH. mami was der 1st.. we rch ard 4pm bc0s need 2 pik up my sis.. d shuttle bus g0es r0und & r0und. wee~ can g0 nuts. wel, wen we enter d ward. i was sh0cked 2 c 2 guys der. as wat i kn0w, ders a separati0n btwin d wards. s0on, i f0und 0ut dat dey wer bunks. 1 was gdl0oking & d 0ther was huge! haha! freaky. digusting t0o c0s 1 didnt bathe eventh0ugh she's been in d h0sp f0r 2 days! yucks. imagine d smell. phew! cant bear wif dat.
entertain my nenek.. surprisingly, i didnt mkn d wh0le day! yiipee! diet, like real. i l0ve d bed c0s its m0vable. my sis & i bunk in der.. 0bvi0usly, she'll take ph0tos. urgh! my face l0oks digusting. t0ok pic 0f rani, my granny's new h0sp fren. frenly aunty. basicali, i made frens wif evry0ne in dat ward. frenly bunch. we stayed der til 8pm c0s visitng hrs was 0ver. bade farewell 2 my granny c0s she's g0in h0me tmr. went 2 7/11 c0s my sis wan buy pizza.
d bl0ody 970 came s0 late.. it was packed t0o. i sat bside dis guy in d bus & it turns 0ut 2 b nazria's ex-bf nazrul. hawtt! chat wif him.. he wana exchange num but i suggest dat we shud jus remain msn frens. haha! im g0od ya?.. as if. aft dat, a cute apek sat bside me. h0ney called. talked wif him til bt timah & dats wher he start upsetting me. pls bie.. i hav enuff 2 tink abt. 2 add 0n. i plead euu.. sitting at d buzstp waitin f0r 985W, 75 dr0ve paSs & s0me guys kept l0oking at me smiling. g0rge0usly hawtt but i wasnt in d m0od 2 entertain such n0nsense. i dun0 wats wr0ng wif me?..
menses? cant b.. evnth0ugh im having it. but i dun0 y he's acting strange?.. nuff. i t0t u said u undrstnd me & w0nt make me upset but u did! durh! 0uh bie, pls b d 0ld eu.. im miszing hiim s0 much.. d0 it f0r my sake, d0 it f0r us.. please...
This is Love, right?
12:06 pm
its getting lame.. d c0nversati0ns wif hiim.. aint quite sure y but he's n0t been acting himself lately.. like lame den usual. s0 unlike hiim. wel, he didnt slept earlier d night b4 c0s he's engr0ssed in pSp. iritating. he's addicted. guys cant b separated frm their t0ys. wel, he pr0mise he'll bunk in early but he didnt. upset. he br0ke his pr0mise.
niwae, 2nite.. we didnt chat much. basicali we talked abt h0w b0ring 0ur aftnun was & d fact dat he had m0re 0utbreaks. pitiful. he s0unded as th0u its c0ntagi0us. pimples arent c0ntagi0us at all.. hais.. he was depressed. i sympathise wif him but wat can i d0?.. im helpless. tried c0axing him but dat didnt w0rk either. s0 i sent him 0ff 2 bed. aft hanging up, i t0ssed & turned but cudnt sleep s0 i msged him. dis is d msg,'all ur sadness breaks my heart..pr0mise dat we shall nvr part. having u is all i cud evr want.. c0s its u, wh0m ive ch0sen 2 b my 0ne..'
its n0t s0 sweet c0s it p0pped in my mind within 5min. haha! it happens 2 rhyme at d ends. zulfadly msged me s0 i rply.. he was busy d0in him pr0j at night. its 1am f0r g0odness sake!! he's hardw0rking since pri sch. dats 1 ting i liked abt his attitude. wen ders a will, ders a way.. nuff said. i was awaken dis m0rning tks 2 my h0ney's ph0ne call. i slept at 2 alm0st 3 c0s needed 2 d0 d laundry. chat wif him f0r a while.. he made me listen 2 marc anth0ny's my baby y0u. he blasted it 0n d speakers. w0ah! damn l0ud. i l0iike.
haha.. g0in 2 d h0sp later. dun0 wat 2 wear. hmpff! i need 2 d0 m0re sh0pping. pls, i need my babes rite n0w. argh!! i tink its g0na b fun c0s i misz g0in 2 d h0sp. haha!! i need 2 get ready rite n0w. g0tta pick up my sis & we'r 0ff 2 see my granny. update s0on..
niwae, 2nite.. we didnt chat much. basicali we talked abt h0w b0ring 0ur aftnun was & d fact dat he had m0re 0utbreaks. pitiful. he s0unded as th0u its c0ntagi0us. pimples arent c0ntagi0us at all.. hais.. he was depressed. i sympathise wif him but wat can i d0?.. im helpless. tried c0axing him but dat didnt w0rk either. s0 i sent him 0ff 2 bed. aft hanging up, i t0ssed & turned but cudnt sleep s0 i msged him. dis is d msg,'all ur sadness breaks my heart..pr0mise dat we shall nvr part. having u is all i cud evr want.. c0s its u, wh0m ive ch0sen 2 b my 0ne..'
its n0t s0 sweet c0s it p0pped in my mind within 5min. haha! it happens 2 rhyme at d ends. zulfadly msged me s0 i rply.. he was busy d0in him pr0j at night. its 1am f0r g0odness sake!! he's hardw0rking since pri sch. dats 1 ting i liked abt his attitude. wen ders a will, ders a way.. nuff said. i was awaken dis m0rning tks 2 my h0ney's ph0ne call. i slept at 2 alm0st 3 c0s needed 2 d0 d laundry. chat wif him f0r a while.. he made me listen 2 marc anth0ny's my baby y0u. he blasted it 0n d speakers. w0ah! damn l0ud. i l0iike.
haha.. g0in 2 d h0sp later. dun0 wat 2 wear. hmpff! i need 2 d0 m0re sh0pping. pls, i need my babes rite n0w. argh!! i tink its g0na b fun c0s i misz g0in 2 d h0sp. haha!! i need 2 get ready rite n0w. g0tta pick up my sis & we'r 0ff 2 see my granny. update s0on..
This is Love, right?
Wednesday 10 January 2007
10:42 pm
i dun0 y but im jus 2 drained 2 g0 out 2dae.. its n0t like i dun wana mit hiim 0r anyting, its jus dat i tink we shud mit s0 often.. c0s eu kn0w h0w its like rite?.. in d beginning, eu mit all d time.. as time passes by, eu mit 0nly like 0nce a week 0r w0rse, 0nce a m0nth. many tings 0n my mind.. heikal's c0ming back 2 s'p0re tmr. he wants me back but ive alrdy given my heart 2 s0meone else.
its heart wrenchin if eu used 2 l0ved s0meone f0r so l0ng but dat pers0n jus left eu questi0nin whether izit f0r real & wen u've given up, he returns.. im speechless. guys r simply tr0ubles0me. y mus dey make my life a tragedy?.. can eu jus leave me al0ne?.. im sick 0f all dis.. it makes me wana giv up but i've alrdy pr0mise hiim dat i'll h0ld 0n n0 matter wat d circumstances are.. im s0rry bie. im pressured.
basicali i spent d wh0le aftnun talkin 2 fadli. he cheered me up. rina j0ined in d c0nference & she made frens wif him. haha. rina had an arguement wif luqfi, bf. s0 fadli was like j0kin ard makin us laugh. such a darling. aft rina hung up, i c0nt talkin 2 him. he shared his life st0ry. i've 0nly kn0wn him f0r a m0nth but he's been such a great pal. thankin eu s0 much. we'll talk again s0on. my h0ney was 0utside, went 2 s0me cerem0ny 0f his late canteen vend0r. i called his h0use ard 8pm but n0body answer. perhaps he's busy. futherm0re, his hp is wif his fren.. hais. i wished eu wer here.. ):
can anyting get w0rst?.. cin0 called c0mplainin dat haslam asked f0r my number. i mean, wats d deal? we'r n0 longer attch & u've alrdy hav a girl. y b0ther s0 much abt my life. i dun bug eu s0 dun piss me 0ff. its light0ut but he called sayin dat he misses me. get a grip! i dun care. u've f0oled me enuff & im n0 l0nger falling f0r anym0re. i thru wif eu.. g0sh. i shudnt even b bl0gging. im g0in thru s0 much angst. i'll g0 off b4 i burst.
its heart wrenchin if eu used 2 l0ved s0meone f0r so l0ng but dat pers0n jus left eu questi0nin whether izit f0r real & wen u've given up, he returns.. im speechless. guys r simply tr0ubles0me. y mus dey make my life a tragedy?.. can eu jus leave me al0ne?.. im sick 0f all dis.. it makes me wana giv up but i've alrdy pr0mise hiim dat i'll h0ld 0n n0 matter wat d circumstances are.. im s0rry bie. im pressured.
basicali i spent d wh0le aftnun talkin 2 fadli. he cheered me up. rina j0ined in d c0nference & she made frens wif him. haha. rina had an arguement wif luqfi, bf. s0 fadli was like j0kin ard makin us laugh. such a darling. aft rina hung up, i c0nt talkin 2 him. he shared his life st0ry. i've 0nly kn0wn him f0r a m0nth but he's been such a great pal. thankin eu s0 much. we'll talk again s0on. my h0ney was 0utside, went 2 s0me cerem0ny 0f his late canteen vend0r. i called his h0use ard 8pm but n0body answer. perhaps he's busy. futherm0re, his hp is wif his fren.. hais. i wished eu wer here.. ):
can anyting get w0rst?.. cin0 called c0mplainin dat haslam asked f0r my number. i mean, wats d deal? we'r n0 longer attch & u've alrdy hav a girl. y b0ther s0 much abt my life. i dun bug eu s0 dun piss me 0ff. its light0ut but he called sayin dat he misses me. get a grip! i dun care. u've f0oled me enuff & im n0 l0nger falling f0r anym0re. i thru wif eu.. g0sh. i shudnt even b bl0gging. im g0in thru s0 much angst. i'll g0 off b4 i burst.
This is Love, right?
1:44 pm
u always made me feel s0 special.. since d 1st time we knew each 0ther, its like we r c0nnected. having many c0mm0n interests like music genres, activities, our character,etc. f0od was an 0ption c0s i hate h0td0gs. yucks! vegetables? eiks.. hate s0me 0nly..it made me feel s0 c0mf0rtable having s0me0ne dat share tings dat i l0ve. wenevr u're ad.. i can b me with0ut w0rryin dat i'll make a f0ol 0ut 0f myself. eu accepted me as d way dat i am.. i've nvr felt s0 special in any guy's eyes b4.. but eu did. i may club, party til wee h0urs, hang0ut wif delinquents but d0esnt mean i kn0w n0thing abt my religi0n. in fact, d hist0ry 0f it fascinates me. nvr did i kn0w dat u l0ve it t0o. n0body dat i've c0me acr0ss shares d same interest. im bleSsed having eu.. i wudnt ask fr m0re. i l0ve eu as wh0 eu are.. n0t ur l0oks, ur m0ney 0r h0w huge ur h0use is.. i jus need eu as urself. u'r treasured. pr0mise. dis is h0w i feel abt eu.. h0pe u'll undrstnd n0w.. ((:
This is Love, right?
Tuesday 9 January 2007
10:31 pm
i had 2 g0 2 d s'p0re general h0sp 2 c my granny.. smth is wr0ng wif her ribcage area. an internal pain & d d0c is d0ing d scanning fr her.. prayin fr her, h0ping fr d best. it was ard 4:25pm dat i rch der.. my relatives wer der earlier as per n0rmal. i had 2 wait fr my sis 2 return h0me frm sch0ol.. wat an amazement! i cud finali wear d pants dat was b0ught back wen i was 0nly 12.. back den i was sh0rt & plump. n0w?.. i m perfected. jus need a lil m0re b0dy t0ning. :)
i w0re d beige pants, br0wn heels, shades & a dirty br0wn t0p.. hawt! fat h0pe la dila.. aft visitin my aunt, i had 2 rush & mit my dearest. my mummy wana wear my heels s0 i had 2 trade fr a dark br0wn pumps. hmpff! ugly, d c0lour didnt match at all. t0o abstract. n0 ch0ice s0 i t0ok 851 der.. in d bus, der was like dis 4 matrips sittin at d back & d 0nly sit left in d bus was d 0ne in fr0nt 0f dem. i was lethargic s0 i jus sat der. dis m0rons kept kickin my chair, pissed me 0ff. wen i rch my destinati0n, i turn & t0ld dem 0ff. den an0ther mat in fr0nt 0f me kept smiling at me, watevr f0r.. i aint sure. at d bus exit, i bump int0 a malay guy. i said s0ri & he kept saying,'eu 0k tk?..tkde pape?..baik-baik tau.' err. 0k. i kn0w?.. d bus jerk s0 i l0st balance. sweet 0f hiim..
met my darling.. he w0re green c0s its he's fav c0lour. durh! we planned 2 g0 2 d library but changed c0s we wanted 2 pik s0meone up. but dat guy left s0 we went 2 amk. b0ught vanilla ice blended, 2 cheese waffle & 2 creamy puffs. wen i said creamy, i mean reli very extremely creamy. we g0t quite nausea c0s t0o many cream.. he ended my spittin 0n d graSs. hah! m0nkey busineSs. he had d puff 0n my n0se.. cream n0se. whakaka!! lame but it s0 fun. it may seem like we'r deprived frm childh0od but we'r n0t. hahaahahahaa!! d didnt kn0w wat 2 d0 so he sent me 0ff h0me ard 9+. we t0ok 852.. talkin abt d time we 1st met & h0w we sat, laughin j0kin abt basicali evryting.. f0nd mem0ries.
s0metimes ur heart keeps questi0nin whether he's fr real.. i cant say fr n0w c0s its been 0nly a wk & eu cant reli tell.. but i trust d fct dat he's fr real. having g0ne thru failed r'ship & feeling d pain. nvr wana g0 thru dat again.. i l0ve hiim s0 much. we sat under my blk til ard 10+. it jus felt s0 empty if he had 2 leave fr h0me. wishin he wud stay, but he cant. he has 2 g0 h0me. heart t0uchin c0s he still sent me h0me evn wen he's ezlink's like l0w on cash. tankiu huNz. he went h0me, i bathe & changed 2 my pjs. d m0ment we spent 2dae may seemed sh0rter den usual but d crazy tings we did was all w0rthwhile.. im 0ff 2 my heaven c0atted bed..
i w0re d beige pants, br0wn heels, shades & a dirty br0wn t0p.. hawt! fat h0pe la dila.. aft visitin my aunt, i had 2 rush & mit my dearest. my mummy wana wear my heels s0 i had 2 trade fr a dark br0wn pumps. hmpff! ugly, d c0lour didnt match at all. t0o abstract. n0 ch0ice s0 i t0ok 851 der.. in d bus, der was like dis 4 matrips sittin at d back & d 0nly sit left in d bus was d 0ne in fr0nt 0f dem. i was lethargic s0 i jus sat der. dis m0rons kept kickin my chair, pissed me 0ff. wen i rch my destinati0n, i turn & t0ld dem 0ff. den an0ther mat in fr0nt 0f me kept smiling at me, watevr f0r.. i aint sure. at d bus exit, i bump int0 a malay guy. i said s0ri & he kept saying,'eu 0k tk?..tkde pape?..baik-baik tau.' err. 0k. i kn0w?.. d bus jerk s0 i l0st balance. sweet 0f hiim..
met my darling.. he w0re green c0s its he's fav c0lour. durh! we planned 2 g0 2 d library but changed c0s we wanted 2 pik s0meone up. but dat guy left s0 we went 2 amk. b0ught vanilla ice blended, 2 cheese waffle & 2 creamy puffs. wen i said creamy, i mean reli very extremely creamy. we g0t quite nausea c0s t0o many cream.. he ended my spittin 0n d graSs. hah! m0nkey busineSs. he had d puff 0n my n0se.. cream n0se. whakaka!! lame but it s0 fun. it may seem like we'r deprived frm childh0od but we'r n0t. hahaahahahaa!! d didnt kn0w wat 2 d0 so he sent me 0ff h0me ard 9+. we t0ok 852.. talkin abt d time we 1st met & h0w we sat, laughin j0kin abt basicali evryting.. f0nd mem0ries.
s0metimes ur heart keeps questi0nin whether he's fr real.. i cant say fr n0w c0s its been 0nly a wk & eu cant reli tell.. but i trust d fct dat he's fr real. having g0ne thru failed r'ship & feeling d pain. nvr wana g0 thru dat again.. i l0ve hiim s0 much. we sat under my blk til ard 10+. it jus felt s0 empty if he had 2 leave fr h0me. wishin he wud stay, but he cant. he has 2 g0 h0me. heart t0uchin c0s he still sent me h0me evn wen he's ezlink's like l0w on cash. tankiu huNz. he went h0me, i bathe & changed 2 my pjs. d m0ment we spent 2dae may seemed sh0rter den usual but d crazy tings we did was all w0rthwhile.. im 0ff 2 my heaven c0atted bed..
This is Love, right?
10:21 am
late call at 11:03pm yesterday.. its my swithart. 0bvi0usly i was glad dat he called c0s d last time we chat was at 6pm.. i t0t he was g0na f0llow his mum 2 d sh0p 0r smth s0 i didnt call his h0use. actuali, he went 2 d sh0p under d blk. dumb me. in d aftnun, he went 2 acc0mpany his fren & later came 0ver his place. s0 i cudnt p0ssibly talk 2 him fr l0ng.. wen he call, he t0ld me abt wat dey did.. s0me weird & digustin.. eiks! eu shud undrstnd wat hapens wen 2 guys meet & dey cant get their hands 0ff each 0ther.. yiks! gr0sS!
wen we'r 0n d ph0ne, he wil alwys b playin d pSp. s0 i asked,'eu tgh main game eh?' he said,'ya, b0ring ar tkde bende nk buat..' i rply,'kirekan, b0ring eh bual dgn i?'. he laughed,'mane ade, sblum i call eu i da b0ring s0 bile da call, i c0nt la main game..'. haha! wat an excuse. i dun mind. he's still s0 shwiit. we c0nt talkin abt wh0 called me. wat dat guy wanted.. crap.
we talked abt cheese. he missed d melted cheese dat he ate at my place.. haha! i asked him 2 c0me 2 my place & eat but he said dat he was shy.. s0 suggested dat send it by FedEx. we j0ke sayin dat by d time it reaches his h0use, it wud hav fungus & dat he'll die aft eatin it. we laugh c0s its dumb. we talked abt suing FedEx f0r being sl0w in d delivery. haha! its lame rite..
abt 0ur r'ship, we hardly evr argue. evn if we d0, it isnt abt us but s0meone else.. hah! d0esnt make sense. s0 we wer tinkin wat wud happen if evry0ne kn0ws?.. bet we'r g0na argue. hate dat. i cant evn bear 2 raise my v0ice at him.. it breaks my hear 2 d0 so.. 1am dis m0rning,i ask him 2 st0p playin d game & g0 2 sleep. s0 he st0p but played s0ngs. urgh!.. b0ys jus cant get separated fr0m their t0ys..
1st s0ng played sams0n-bukan diriku. he gav a scenari0;' it was raining heavily & we wer arguin.. i didnt f0rgive him. i didnt l0ok at his face c0s i was angry at him. he smiled but i didnt care. he was drenched. he went 2 d buzst0p & b0ard d bus. d bus met wif an accident & n0body survived. came h0me & tried callin him but cant get thru. in d paper d nxt day, i g0t d news.. i was depressed.' i heard dat & tears trickled 0n my bed..
played babyface-l0neliness & marc anth0ny-my baby y0u. 2nd scene;' we wer talkin 0n d ph0ne while he was 0n d way 2 mit me. im usin prepaid s0 aft an h0ur, it will aut0 hangup. at dat p0int in time, he was cr0ssing d r0ad. wen d recepti0n hangup, he l0oked 0n his hp & a vehicle hit him. his sis called me sayin dat he's g0ne.' my bed was wet wif tears.. & he said,' imagine, d last v0ice i heard was urs b4 i died.' i s0bbed.
j0j0-weak & christina-hurt;' he kept a secret, pr0misin 2 tell 1 day. he call sayin he's at d h0sp visitin his c0usin & ask me 2 c0me. i came & his was 0n d bed. he t0ld me he a sickness & he w0nt b able 2 live l0nger. d nxt day, he passed away.' dis was d saddest c0s i rmbr nadiah. i tink i didnt treasure her enuf. i cried, feelin jaded. he made me tink abt d future p0ssibilities.. s0me truths dat may b unacceptable..
we ended 0ur c0nvrsati0n talkin abt 0ur religi0n & h0w pr0ud we are 2 b a muslim. talk abt judgement day.. d hist0ry 0f all d pr0phets. i felt h0ly c0s i rmbr all d hist0ry 0f d islam adventures in d early hundreds. im blessed 2 have d kn0wledge. i thank my parents f0r enr0llin me 2 classes. i wudnt b wh0 i m if n0t f0r dem. i l0ve dem, my her0es. ~ im l0ved.
wen we'r 0n d ph0ne, he wil alwys b playin d pSp. s0 i asked,'eu tgh main game eh?' he said,'ya, b0ring ar tkde bende nk buat..' i rply,'kirekan, b0ring eh bual dgn i?'. he laughed,'mane ade, sblum i call eu i da b0ring s0 bile da call, i c0nt la main game..'. haha! wat an excuse. i dun mind. he's still s0 shwiit. we c0nt talkin abt wh0 called me. wat dat guy wanted.. crap.
we talked abt cheese. he missed d melted cheese dat he ate at my place.. haha! i asked him 2 c0me 2 my place & eat but he said dat he was shy.. s0 suggested dat send it by FedEx. we j0ke sayin dat by d time it reaches his h0use, it wud hav fungus & dat he'll die aft eatin it. we laugh c0s its dumb. we talked abt suing FedEx f0r being sl0w in d delivery. haha! its lame rite..
abt 0ur r'ship, we hardly evr argue. evn if we d0, it isnt abt us but s0meone else.. hah! d0esnt make sense. s0 we wer tinkin wat wud happen if evry0ne kn0ws?.. bet we'r g0na argue. hate dat. i cant evn bear 2 raise my v0ice at him.. it breaks my hear 2 d0 so.. 1am dis m0rning,i ask him 2 st0p playin d game & g0 2 sleep. s0 he st0p but played s0ngs. urgh!.. b0ys jus cant get separated fr0m their t0ys..
1st s0ng played sams0n-bukan diriku. he gav a scenari0;' it was raining heavily & we wer arguin.. i didnt f0rgive him. i didnt l0ok at his face c0s i was angry at him. he smiled but i didnt care. he was drenched. he went 2 d buzst0p & b0ard d bus. d bus met wif an accident & n0body survived. came h0me & tried callin him but cant get thru. in d paper d nxt day, i g0t d news.. i was depressed.' i heard dat & tears trickled 0n my bed..
played babyface-l0neliness & marc anth0ny-my baby y0u. 2nd scene;' we wer talkin 0n d ph0ne while he was 0n d way 2 mit me. im usin prepaid s0 aft an h0ur, it will aut0 hangup. at dat p0int in time, he was cr0ssing d r0ad. wen d recepti0n hangup, he l0oked 0n his hp & a vehicle hit him. his sis called me sayin dat he's g0ne.' my bed was wet wif tears.. & he said,' imagine, d last v0ice i heard was urs b4 i died.' i s0bbed.
j0j0-weak & christina-hurt;' he kept a secret, pr0misin 2 tell 1 day. he call sayin he's at d h0sp visitin his c0usin & ask me 2 c0me. i came & his was 0n d bed. he t0ld me he a sickness & he w0nt b able 2 live l0nger. d nxt day, he passed away.' dis was d saddest c0s i rmbr nadiah. i tink i didnt treasure her enuf. i cried, feelin jaded. he made me tink abt d future p0ssibilities.. s0me truths dat may b unacceptable..
we ended 0ur c0nvrsati0n talkin abt 0ur religi0n & h0w pr0ud we are 2 b a muslim. talk abt judgement day.. d hist0ry 0f all d pr0phets. i felt h0ly c0s i rmbr all d hist0ry 0f d islam adventures in d early hundreds. im blessed 2 have d kn0wledge. i thank my parents f0r enr0llin me 2 classes. i wudnt b wh0 i m if n0t f0r dem. i l0ve dem, my her0es. ~ im l0ved.
This is Love, right?
Monday 8 January 2007
8:31 am
hey pe0ple.. i w0ke up t0o early 2day evnth0u i slept at 3:15am.. mus b smth wr0ng wif my brain. shucks. haha.. as usual, wenevr i sleep late it means im 0n d ph0ne talkin 2 my hubby. a day with0ut havin a late night c0nversati0n seems hardly imp0ssible. we'r addicted!.. he hasnt t0p up his prepaid.. its upsettin c0s he calls my hp & his ph0ne bill am0unt is s0 g0na sh0ot up.!!.. 0uh h0ney.. t0p up s0on. plsh.. pity ur daddy..
we talked abt d lamest stuff p0ssible.. like d fact dat im wrappin my br0's txtb0ok wif d plastic tingy.. haha. we talked abt d bl0odified c0uple wh0 cant st0p staring. he's english! argh! can mati.. g0od w0rds but wr0ng usage. cute. talkin abt wat life's g0na b like if he g0es f0r Ns. i dread dat w0rd. its n0t dat i dun trust him.. its jus dat, i wudnt wnt hist0ry 2 b repeated. jamal & me wer 2gether f0r 2m0nths b4 he entered Ns.. & he changed. many 0ther pe0ple i kn0w, t0ld me abt their experiences t0o. its either d girl 0r d guy dat will change. i s0 dun0 wan l0se him.. all i hav left is him 2 c0nfide in bside my family.
i n0 l0nger hav nadd. imisz her!! :'(. h0w l0vely she l0oked b4 she began l0sing s0 much weight & jus left.. nvr g0na return again. til time ends, i'll b h0ldin 0n 2 her mem0ries.. i l0ve eu nadd. we'll mit s0meday wen d w0rld ends.. 0ur hearts will b united 0nce again.. i cant face her family. if d0, i start breakin d0wn tinkin abt her & d times we shared in sec sch.. d dumb tings we did..
i pray dat i w0nt changed.. i'll 0nly changed f0r d better 0f d b0th 0f us.. u'r 2 special f0r me 2 let g0.. i wudnt wnt eu 2 b part 0f my hist0ry. i wnt eu as my future.. d 0ne man dat i'll l0ok 4wrd 2 each & evry time.. we talked abt 0ur pri & sec sch days.. h0w different we are frm n0w. d kind 0f pe0ple we hang 0ut wif.. 0ur p0pu;arity level.. ahaks! it kept my mind 0ff d future f0r a while.. we laughed at h0w nerdy we wer back den.. it was a sweet mem0ry kinda t0pic.. but, time flies s0 fast wen u'r enj0yin a l0ved 0ne's c0mpany.. we end d talk. his turn 2 hang up.. yeah. 2 m0re days & it'll b my turn.. i l0ve eu bie.
im hungry.. n0 f0od. nvm. diet til d f0od is c0oked.. hehe! ibu, quick masak.. im hungry..
we talked abt d lamest stuff p0ssible.. like d fact dat im wrappin my br0's txtb0ok wif d plastic tingy.. haha. we talked abt d bl0odified c0uple wh0 cant st0p staring. he's english! argh! can mati.. g0od w0rds but wr0ng usage. cute. talkin abt wat life's g0na b like if he g0es f0r Ns. i dread dat w0rd. its n0t dat i dun trust him.. its jus dat, i wudnt wnt hist0ry 2 b repeated. jamal & me wer 2gether f0r 2m0nths b4 he entered Ns.. & he changed. many 0ther pe0ple i kn0w, t0ld me abt their experiences t0o. its either d girl 0r d guy dat will change. i s0 dun0 wan l0se him.. all i hav left is him 2 c0nfide in bside my family.
i n0 l0nger hav nadd. imisz her!! :'(. h0w l0vely she l0oked b4 she began l0sing s0 much weight & jus left.. nvr g0na return again. til time ends, i'll b h0ldin 0n 2 her mem0ries.. i l0ve eu nadd. we'll mit s0meday wen d w0rld ends.. 0ur hearts will b united 0nce again.. i cant face her family. if d0, i start breakin d0wn tinkin abt her & d times we shared in sec sch.. d dumb tings we did..
i pray dat i w0nt changed.. i'll 0nly changed f0r d better 0f d b0th 0f us.. u'r 2 special f0r me 2 let g0.. i wudnt wnt eu 2 b part 0f my hist0ry. i wnt eu as my future.. d 0ne man dat i'll l0ok 4wrd 2 each & evry time.. we talked abt 0ur pri & sec sch days.. h0w different we are frm n0w. d kind 0f pe0ple we hang 0ut wif.. 0ur p0pu;arity level.. ahaks! it kept my mind 0ff d future f0r a while.. we laughed at h0w nerdy we wer back den.. it was a sweet mem0ry kinda t0pic.. but, time flies s0 fast wen u'r enj0yin a l0ved 0ne's c0mpany.. we end d talk. his turn 2 hang up.. yeah. 2 m0re days & it'll b my turn.. i l0ve eu bie.
im hungry.. n0 f0od. nvm. diet til d f0od is c0oked.. hehe! ibu, quick masak.. im hungry..
This is Love, right?
Sunday 7 January 2007
11:52 pm
shesh. i dun0 wat my life wud b if he aint ard.. he makes my day m0st 0f d time.. he's like my bestfren, 0nly ting.. we'r m0re den dat. its makes me tremble tinkin abt d day if either 0f us starts changin & d feelin is g0ne.. f0rever. just like dat. aft all d m0ments we spent tryna h0ld 0n 2 dis chemistry.. dun wana tink abt it n0 more. it makes me w0rry abt d future & wat it brings.. he 0nce t0ld me.."ur past is my sympathy, ur future is my resp0nsibility". dats d heart-pr0voking ting i've evr heard.. l0ve. shwiit..
having n0thing 2 d0 d wh0le aftnun since my parents & my sis went 2 keje kahwin while my br0 went 0ut wif his fren.. my h0ney was 0ut wif his fren 2 get s0me stuff. im al0ne & all i cud d0 is entertain my kitty cat. she's a dear. sleepin bside me while i use d c0mputer. aww.. ad0rable. wel, my dearest called askin whether i wana mit up wif him since he misses me.. sh0ots. i misz him truckl0ads. i just wana see his face.. it d0esnt matter where we g0, jus as l0ng as he's ard.. im feel secured & l0ved.
funny ting was.. his fren's gf was frm d same sec as i was.. haha! c0incident. i wasnt cl0se 2 her but she was in tarian 0nce wen she was in sec 2. she's a gdfren 0f carina. well, planned 2 mit him at 5:30pm at d bt btk buzst0p. he was s0 cute, wat an image. imagine>> bermudas, sneakers, smart l0ng sleeved t0p & listenin 2 his psp dat he jus changed d c0ver..?.. weird but stylish l0ok. he's mine! im n0t sharing.
well we didnt kn0w wat 2 d0 s0 we t0ok 106 til prinsep st. b0ught pringles, walked pass blend inn cafe & b0arded 857. by den, its alrdy ard 7+. reached ys, b0ught drink & went 2 0ur fav destinati0n. its a secret. laze ard til ard 9:26pm b4 he sent me 0ff 2 d buzst0p 2 g0 h0me. he's such a switheart. treasure him s0 much. 3rd best aft my family; 1st & nurani nadiah; 2nd. btw,we cudnt stand s0me idi0tic c0uple starin at us. freakin hell. l0athe eu dumbness..
s0 yaa.. buz came quite fast. b0ard it & fell asleep. t0o exhausted.. reached bt btk, i saw my c0usin, hafiz under d blk wif his fren. like hell0?.. its 11+ & tmr he's sch0olin but he's under d blk chilling 0ut. wat d hell!! nvm. i went h0me & msged wif zulfadly. pri skul buddy. haha.. dats all guys.. im d0ne!..
having n0thing 2 d0 d wh0le aftnun since my parents & my sis went 2 keje kahwin while my br0 went 0ut wif his fren.. my h0ney was 0ut wif his fren 2 get s0me stuff. im al0ne & all i cud d0 is entertain my kitty cat. she's a dear. sleepin bside me while i use d c0mputer. aww.. ad0rable. wel, my dearest called askin whether i wana mit up wif him since he misses me.. sh0ots. i misz him truckl0ads. i just wana see his face.. it d0esnt matter where we g0, jus as l0ng as he's ard.. im feel secured & l0ved.
funny ting was.. his fren's gf was frm d same sec as i was.. haha! c0incident. i wasnt cl0se 2 her but she was in tarian 0nce wen she was in sec 2. she's a gdfren 0f carina. well, planned 2 mit him at 5:30pm at d bt btk buzst0p. he was s0 cute, wat an image. imagine>> bermudas, sneakers, smart l0ng sleeved t0p & listenin 2 his psp dat he jus changed d c0ver..?.. weird but stylish l0ok. he's mine! im n0t sharing.
well we didnt kn0w wat 2 d0 s0 we t0ok 106 til prinsep st. b0ught pringles, walked pass blend inn cafe & b0arded 857. by den, its alrdy ard 7+. reached ys, b0ught drink & went 2 0ur fav destinati0n. its a secret. laze ard til ard 9:26pm b4 he sent me 0ff 2 d buzst0p 2 g0 h0me. he's such a switheart. treasure him s0 much. 3rd best aft my family; 1st & nurani nadiah; 2nd. btw,we cudnt stand s0me idi0tic c0uple starin at us. freakin hell. l0athe eu dumbness..
s0 yaa.. buz came quite fast. b0ard it & fell asleep. t0o exhausted.. reached bt btk, i saw my c0usin, hafiz under d blk wif his fren. like hell0?.. its 11+ & tmr he's sch0olin but he's under d blk chilling 0ut. wat d hell!! nvm. i went h0me & msged wif zulfadly. pri skul buddy. haha.. dats all guys.. im d0ne!..
This is Love, right?
Saturday 6 January 2007
9:36 pm
ahaks! i w0ke up at 10:42am. farhan w0ke me up.. aww! p0or thang. he has 2 g0 2 werk. nah! at least im at d c0mfort 0f my own h0me. :). s0 yaa.. i g0t kinda b0red s0 i beep all my gdfrens, enquirin whether dey wana g0 2 d SP openh0use. its kinda dumb c0s by den, its alrdy 3:20pm. dey agreed! yipee d0o daa.. im free at last!.. muahaha..
s0 i got changed & farhan miss call my hp. i w0nder y?.. hmm.. mish me huh?.. syiok sendiri. i msg him bek evnth0gh i knew he cudnt rply. prepaid l0w. damn. i leftmy h0use ard 4pm & was busy talkin 2 sam,l0udly, under my blk. i heard s0meone sh0utin my name. i l0oked up & its my bl0ody mat neighb0ur. tryna pik a fight wif me. i mean, wats d pr0blem wif me g0in out wif my h0ney?.. i didnt intrude his life 0r smth. fancy askin me 2 break my c0nnecti0n wif my dearest. fatt h0pe!! a c0uple of arguements b4 i was saved by 1 0f his braders. phew!.. rch d buzst0p & d bus came.
met my darlin angels at 4:15pm & rushed 2 SP since d openh0use was g0na end s0on. fantastic explanati0n 0f all d diff c0urses made by d students.. c0ngrats! s0me stupid aer0space guys wer tryna hit 0n haslin, raudah & me. haha! we've alrdy g0t our MAN!! dey made lame j0ke dat we laugh 0nly bc0s dey l0ok dumb. dey evn tagged us wen we went f0r our late lunch. piSsmaker. damn eu pe0ple. im interested in HIM & HIM only. 0ther guys, wait f0r d nxt reservati0ns yaa?..
aft dat, dis buggers stalked us til h0lland village. s0, we went hiding in d fact0ry 0utlet (cant rmbr d name). s0 we parted since its alrdy 7:52pm.. i t0ok 106 & had a quik shut eye. while i was draggin my way 2 my blk, hakim called. huh?.. farhan's fren. he asked me d lamest stuff p0ssible. well, still in sh0ckness & dr0wsy c0s im tired, i kept sayin,"huh? ape seyy?"..
well yaa.. came h0me. my dad made s0me stupid j0ke. i dun0 wat 2 call it. my mum was talkin 2 me but i didnt hear her. s0 she kept sh0utin abt l0werin dwn d tv's v0lume.. my dad g0t iritated & sh0uted in a funny way," fadhilah!! kau dgr tk?.. dgr tk?.." i tink he repeated it f0r abt 10times while laughin. cute but iritating. den he came 2 d kitchen wind0w & sh0uted d same ting. dis time, a chinese family g0t sh0cked thinkin dat ders a war g0in 0n. haha! shud hav seen dat man's expressi0n. funny!!..
haha.. k, im actuali reli drained. g0na sh0wer again 2 wake myself up. t0odles. & h0ney if u'r readin dis, jus wana tel eu dat i misz eu t0ns. cant wait 2 hav eu in my arms again. tks f0r d TLC eu've always sh0wered 0n me. cant thank eu enuff.. l0ve eu.
s0 i got changed & farhan miss call my hp. i w0nder y?.. hmm.. mish me huh?.. syiok sendiri. i msg him bek evnth0gh i knew he cudnt rply. prepaid l0w. damn. i leftmy h0use ard 4pm & was busy talkin 2 sam,l0udly, under my blk. i heard s0meone sh0utin my name. i l0oked up & its my bl0ody mat neighb0ur. tryna pik a fight wif me. i mean, wats d pr0blem wif me g0in out wif my h0ney?.. i didnt intrude his life 0r smth. fancy askin me 2 break my c0nnecti0n wif my dearest. fatt h0pe!! a c0uple of arguements b4 i was saved by 1 0f his braders. phew!.. rch d buzst0p & d bus came.
met my darlin angels at 4:15pm & rushed 2 SP since d openh0use was g0na end s0on. fantastic explanati0n 0f all d diff c0urses made by d students.. c0ngrats! s0me stupid aer0space guys wer tryna hit 0n haslin, raudah & me. haha! we've alrdy g0t our MAN!! dey made lame j0ke dat we laugh 0nly bc0s dey l0ok dumb. dey evn tagged us wen we went f0r our late lunch. piSsmaker. damn eu pe0ple. im interested in HIM & HIM only. 0ther guys, wait f0r d nxt reservati0ns yaa?..
aft dat, dis buggers stalked us til h0lland village. s0, we went hiding in d fact0ry 0utlet (cant rmbr d name). s0 we parted since its alrdy 7:52pm.. i t0ok 106 & had a quik shut eye. while i was draggin my way 2 my blk, hakim called. huh?.. farhan's fren. he asked me d lamest stuff p0ssible. well, still in sh0ckness & dr0wsy c0s im tired, i kept sayin,"huh? ape seyy?"..
well yaa.. came h0me. my dad made s0me stupid j0ke. i dun0 wat 2 call it. my mum was talkin 2 me but i didnt hear her. s0 she kept sh0utin abt l0werin dwn d tv's v0lume.. my dad g0t iritated & sh0uted in a funny way," fadhilah!! kau dgr tk?.. dgr tk?.." i tink he repeated it f0r abt 10times while laughin. cute but iritating. den he came 2 d kitchen wind0w & sh0uted d same ting. dis time, a chinese family g0t sh0cked thinkin dat ders a war g0in 0n. haha! shud hav seen dat man's expressi0n. funny!!..
haha.. k, im actuali reli drained. g0na sh0wer again 2 wake myself up. t0odles. & h0ney if u'r readin dis, jus wana tel eu dat i misz eu t0ns. cant wait 2 hav eu in my arms again. tks f0r d TLC eu've always sh0wered 0n me. cant thank eu enuff.. l0ve eu.
This is Love, right?
Friday 5 January 2007
6:32 pm
it a friday.. i hav 2 mit alisSa since its been a l0ng time since we last met. azura came al0ng t0o. i met dem at ard 2:10pm,bt bat0k ctrl bc0s azura wana mit her fren ard der.. dey finished skul at ard 1:30pm. wat d hell?!.. wen it was my time, it ended at 2pm!! aint fair. i 0bject dis regulati0n.
while waitin f0r d bus, i bump int0 hafiz nip0n. haha!! exchange number & my fanclub members l0oked s0 pisSed 0ff. dumbneSs. in d bus, i saw yan nip0n. g0sh! wat m0re can i ask since i've n0t met dem in a l0ng time.. kinda misS d m0ments we used 2 shared as nip0ns. haixz..
niwae, met dem & within minutes.. azura's fren, ehsan came. blackmetal?.. i dun quite undrstnd dem... if it was punk, indie 0r em0 dudes, it'll make m0re sense 2 me. s0 we went 0ver 2 ehsan's crib. he sh0wed his cat & f0und 0ut dat he was an ex-bt viewan. ahaks! wat a c0incident. he knew my c0usin. & i kn0w his sister.. g0t a little updati0n abt wats g0ing 0n in alisSa+azura's life. still w0nderin th0ugh abt their fascinati0n wif guys named FarHan!! hah! wh0 cares? aint a part 0f my resp0nsibility.
bsides, im n0t cl0se 2 alisSa & azura n0 more. misc0mmunicati0n. haha! nvm. hist0ry shant b revealed. s09 i hang0ut wif dem til 3+ b4 i had 2 pik up my sis. in d end,i didnt hav 2. shucks. s0 i walked h0me & gueSs wat?.. i saw hazmi nip0n!! yeah! all in a day. i misz him d m0st c0s he's 1 0f th0se dat im cl0se t0. g0t his new num & wen h0me. chat wif my h0ney al0ng d way.
i reached h0me, shared a c0uple 0f st0ries wif him. kinda g0t a little curi0us at 1st wen he kept s0 so s0o many questi0n abt d st0ry. i felt dumb fr tellin him. futherm0re, d way he said it made it s0und like he l0ved her still.. its 0k. i 4giv him. evnth0ugh it kinda breaks my heart. well, we end d c0nvrsati0n since his muMmy needed d h0use ph0ne..
" am i w0rthy enuff fr him?.. i w0nder.. " - DiLa
while waitin f0r d bus, i bump int0 hafiz nip0n. haha!! exchange number & my fanclub members l0oked s0 pisSed 0ff. dumbneSs. in d bus, i saw yan nip0n. g0sh! wat m0re can i ask since i've n0t met dem in a l0ng time.. kinda misS d m0ments we used 2 shared as nip0ns. haixz..
niwae, met dem & within minutes.. azura's fren, ehsan came. blackmetal?.. i dun quite undrstnd dem... if it was punk, indie 0r em0 dudes, it'll make m0re sense 2 me. s0 we went 0ver 2 ehsan's crib. he sh0wed his cat & f0und 0ut dat he was an ex-bt viewan. ahaks! wat a c0incident. he knew my c0usin. & i kn0w his sister.. g0t a little updati0n abt wats g0ing 0n in alisSa+azura's life. still w0nderin th0ugh abt their fascinati0n wif guys named FarHan!! hah! wh0 cares? aint a part 0f my resp0nsibility.
bsides, im n0t cl0se 2 alisSa & azura n0 more. misc0mmunicati0n. haha! nvm. hist0ry shant b revealed. s09 i hang0ut wif dem til 3+ b4 i had 2 pik up my sis. in d end,i didnt hav 2. shucks. s0 i walked h0me & gueSs wat?.. i saw hazmi nip0n!! yeah! all in a day. i misz him d m0st c0s he's 1 0f th0se dat im cl0se t0. g0t his new num & wen h0me. chat wif my h0ney al0ng d way.
i reached h0me, shared a c0uple 0f st0ries wif him. kinda g0t a little curi0us at 1st wen he kept s0 so s0o many questi0n abt d st0ry. i felt dumb fr tellin him. futherm0re, d way he said it made it s0und like he l0ved her still.. its 0k. i 4giv him. evnth0ugh it kinda breaks my heart. well, we end d c0nvrsati0n since his muMmy needed d h0use ph0ne..
" am i w0rthy enuff fr him?.. i w0nder.. " - DiLa
This is Love, right?
Thursday 4 January 2007
11:20 pm
it was a bright day in d begginning. started 0ut wif a m0rning call frm farhan! ahaks!.. elfi had his prac ard 4:30pm in yck s0 basically he wana mit us earlier. but we had 0ur 0wn c0mmitments s0 we aband0n dat early meet up plan.
s0, ard 6+.. farhan picked me up frm my crib b4 meetin elfi in n0vena. well, my neighb0ur was under d blk executin an0ther ri0t in bt bat0k. y cant he jus die?!?!.. nvm. his 'braders' wer h0t stuff! 0uh. i l0ike. wel, we decide 2 sit ard bt bat0k area waitin fr time 2 paSs us by til it began p0urin d0wn buckets!.. we ran 2 blk 258 study area but d rain bcame w0rst. freezed up & i cudnt take it n0 longer theref0re, we came 0ver 2 my place.
we ate bread wif cheese+bread wif sweet milk!.. he never ate melted cheese 0n bread using d micr0wave b4.. hahaha!! wat a j0ke.. neverthless. aliSsa msg me askin whether i cud mit her up tmr ard 2pm. i said 0k. didnt kn0w he l0ok so disturbed wen i t0ld my mum abt dat msg.. s0 we head off 2 mit elfi. he iritate me in d bus. had 2 pesevere.
we rch der wif elfi l0okin upset. jaded. shucks. sat at mcCafe til 9+, talkin abt farhan's future.. very dead mo0d. n0body was l0okin happy. we had sum b0xing game g0in on btwin farhan & me. & arm wrestling wif elfi.. niwaes, it g0t kinda late. head h0me. farhan l0okin glum in d train tinkin abt his future. s0 i c0ax him til ys & we separate ways.. haiz.
s0, ard 6+.. farhan picked me up frm my crib b4 meetin elfi in n0vena. well, my neighb0ur was under d blk executin an0ther ri0t in bt bat0k. y cant he jus die?!?!.. nvm. his 'braders' wer h0t stuff! 0uh. i l0ike. wel, we decide 2 sit ard bt bat0k area waitin fr time 2 paSs us by til it began p0urin d0wn buckets!.. we ran 2 blk 258 study area but d rain bcame w0rst. freezed up & i cudnt take it n0 longer theref0re, we came 0ver 2 my place.
we ate bread wif cheese+bread wif sweet milk!.. he never ate melted cheese 0n bread using d micr0wave b4.. hahaha!! wat a j0ke.. neverthless. aliSsa msg me askin whether i cud mit her up tmr ard 2pm. i said 0k. didnt kn0w he l0ok so disturbed wen i t0ld my mum abt dat msg.. s0 we head off 2 mit elfi. he iritate me in d bus. had 2 pesevere.
we rch der wif elfi l0okin upset. jaded. shucks. sat at mcCafe til 9+, talkin abt farhan's future.. very dead mo0d. n0body was l0okin happy. we had sum b0xing game g0in on btwin farhan & me. & arm wrestling wif elfi.. niwaes, it g0t kinda late. head h0me. farhan l0okin glum in d train tinkin abt his future. s0 i c0ax him til ys & we separate ways.. haiz.
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Tuesday 2 January 2007
11:52 pm
hahaha.. wat a day! my leg's still tired frm d 2hrs walk & excercise.. i wish i was h0me but hack! i wana g0 out c0s im bored.. r0tting at h0me, nt kn0win wat 2 d0. g0sh!.. tks 2 farhan's call. i cud g0 out!.. wif hafiz, din & ida. nt 2 4get farhan arh. dey wana g0 2 d graSsro0t club. i didnt kn0w watevr fr but jus went al0ng. din & ida came late. hmpff! waited fr dem c0s we wer supp0sed 2 mit at 2pm. while waitin, hafiz b0ught us chrysantemum tea! yeah! dey came, sm0ked & we went 2 d club.
it didnt make sense. 2+, playin p0ol?.. s0, d guys play d game while ida & i laugh at deyr dumb antics. ard 3, hafiz had 2 leave fr h0me. s0 d rest 0f us wen 0ff 2 amk 2 send ida h0me. farhan was a idi0t! he made me tripped at d staircase til my sh0e came 0ff! urgh! iritant. niwae,we parted at amk bc0s farhan & me wer hungry. we mkn at a k0pi sh0p. he had 2 sugarcane drinks while i had 1. he ate s0to ayam & i, kway te0w. we wer bl0ated!!
didnt kn0w wat 2 d0.. we chill 0ut at amk library. i read a b0ok on l0ve: islam's perspective.. he played winning 11. hah! he cudnt let his pSp g0 even wen he used d t0ilet!! eeiieeii.. by 6:15pm, we t0ok 852 til khatib, but twisties frm ABC. it began p0urin heavily s0 we sat 0pp d yP. rain st0p & we wen 2 our fav sittin area. haha!! khusyuk. un4gettable seyy.. stupid apek find find fish. haha! we decide 2 get 0ut d new ys park. splendid. d architecture rawks! 9:51pm til 10: 15pm, we expl0re d place. nice. its rec0nmended. need 2 rush h0me s0 we t0ok 965 til ys & depart.
i was iritated c0s der was many mats in d train dat kept disturbin my peace. haixx.. heck. i l0ve me. i l0ve my family. i l0ve HiM.
it didnt make sense. 2+, playin p0ol?.. s0, d guys play d game while ida & i laugh at deyr dumb antics. ard 3, hafiz had 2 leave fr h0me. s0 d rest 0f us wen 0ff 2 amk 2 send ida h0me. farhan was a idi0t! he made me tripped at d staircase til my sh0e came 0ff! urgh! iritant. niwae,we parted at amk bc0s farhan & me wer hungry. we mkn at a k0pi sh0p. he had 2 sugarcane drinks while i had 1. he ate s0to ayam & i, kway te0w. we wer bl0ated!!
didnt kn0w wat 2 d0.. we chill 0ut at amk library. i read a b0ok on l0ve: islam's perspective.. he played winning 11. hah! he cudnt let his pSp g0 even wen he used d t0ilet!! eeiieeii.. by 6:15pm, we t0ok 852 til khatib, but twisties frm ABC. it began p0urin heavily s0 we sat 0pp d yP. rain st0p & we wen 2 our fav sittin area. haha!! khusyuk. un4gettable seyy.. stupid apek find find fish. haha! we decide 2 get 0ut d new ys park. splendid. d architecture rawks! 9:51pm til 10: 15pm, we expl0re d place. nice. its rec0nmended. need 2 rush h0me s0 we t0ok 965 til ys & depart.
i was iritated c0s der was many mats in d train dat kept disturbin my peace. haixx.. heck. i l0ve me. i l0ve my family. i l0ve HiM.
This is Love, right?
Monday 1 January 2007
9:17 pm
shant name d guy th0ugh. discreti0n due 2 hist0ry.. lets jus call him, h0neypie. kn0win him due t0 a miss call. skeptical abt it?.. in fact, i was t0o! cut it sh0rt, we were strangers wh0 bcame gudfrends s0 as t0 aid a br0ken r'ship. later we bcame t0o cl0se til 0ur frendship was tested.. d st0ry g0es 0n..
c0untdwn'o7.. picked me up ard 11+ 0n d 31st wif his buddy!.. he was dashingly hawt! w0ah! n0 w0rd can describe it!.. a sight dat was plastered within d depths 0f my s0ul.. haha!! em0 shit!.. help me pick 0ut wat 2 wear since i cnt decide.. he ch0se & d 3 0f us departed 2 raffles city.. his buddy had 2 leave us b4 d event. by den, its alrdy 11:54pm. b0th 0f us practicali ran frm d MRT stati0n 2 d 0pen field jus 2 catch a glimpse 0f d extravagant fire display.. reachin d field feelin digusted bc0s of d mud n sweat! eiks!..
fantastic view.. time check; 12:03am. he p0p d questi0n,"wud eu ...?" darns. speechless. blushin fr g0d kn0ws hw long! i didnt reply s0 i t0ld him 2 giv me an h0ur. i nvr expected dis 2 c0me s0 so0n.. watchin d firew0rks, starin at each 0ther.. prayin dis m0ment cud last fr eternity.. it ended. we wen 2 find a t0ilet 2 wash 0ff d muds but cudnt take it n0 l0nger s0 washed it 0ff in a raffles blvd f0untain. thristy, we b0ught evian wif 2 nescafe; 0riginal & latte b4 sittin at a taxi stand..
12:53 am 0nwards, we venture 2 all d clubbin destitudes.. ahaks! it was funny. wen we came by club marquees, it was playin, girlfriend by justin timberlake!.. wat d hell. 1:15am, 0ff 2 bugis n went tru dark sp0oky underpaSs 2 g0lden landmark.. 2:16am; he kept askin & i didnt wnt 2 h0ld it back n0 m0re so i gav him d answer dat he deserve.. hunger fr f0od! t0ok away 2 mcspicy+fries+ice lem0n tea & ate it at d bugis junc sideway. its 3am! dats fast!!..
4:07am; we began 0ur misSi0n 2 pr0ceed 2 yishun 0n F0OT!! we succeed til amk b4 0ur legs gav way.. it was a mem0rable incident!.. as f0llows are d events..
1) he need a t0ilet.. luckily,i saw a shell stati0n! it was in lavender area!! haha! funny seyy..
2) went by p0lice academy.. sp0oky! he scare me! i cnt recall d 0ther places th0ugh.. at 1 pt, he burped l0udly hittin his chest at d same time & said,"chibai.." L0UDLY!!.. embarassin..
3) thr0ughout d j0urney, we kept glancin at each 0ther in t0tal bewilderment as we pass by his ite & h0tels!..
4) dis is d b0mb!.. we wer engr0ss talkin abt d burpin incident & laughin 0ur heads 0ff at 6+ 0pp0site sin ming industrial. all 0f a sudden, he grab my hand tightly, stared at smth in fr0nt 0f him, l0oked at me, let g0 of my hand n shrieked," ape tu?!" still gigglin, i f0llowed his stare. a shiny ting stayin still at d buzst0p. freaky! sh0cked s0 i sh0ut," siak ar eu! ape seyy tu?.." while pushin him & gettin ready 2 run.. he checked it 0ut & gueSs wat?.. its a apek wif a shiny b0tak patch at d centre 0f his head. hahaha!!.. s0 malu. we laughed abt 0ur dumbnesS til amk b4 an0ther apek bcame a j0ke. a apek riding bicycle 'rriiiinnngg..rriinnnggg..' s0 i turn & i t0ld h0neypie,"eu, sane skt ade 0rg nk lalu.." he turned bhind n yell,"sial laa!!" hahaha. s0 cute. 0ur 010107 st0ry.
shack. we t0ok 851 til ys b4 departing. takin 852 h0me, i fell asleep. he's a darling.. rch h0me, sh0wer & bamm! slept frm 8 am til 12n0on. well, gueSs i'll end here. exhausted!. haha. keep y'all updated if p0ssible. c ya..
c0untdwn'o7.. picked me up ard 11+ 0n d 31st wif his buddy!.. he was dashingly hawt! w0ah! n0 w0rd can describe it!.. a sight dat was plastered within d depths 0f my s0ul.. haha!! em0 shit!.. help me pick 0ut wat 2 wear since i cnt decide.. he ch0se & d 3 0f us departed 2 raffles city.. his buddy had 2 leave us b4 d event. by den, its alrdy 11:54pm. b0th 0f us practicali ran frm d MRT stati0n 2 d 0pen field jus 2 catch a glimpse 0f d extravagant fire display.. reachin d field feelin digusted bc0s of d mud n sweat! eiks!..
fantastic view.. time check; 12:03am. he p0p d questi0n,"wud eu ...?" darns. speechless. blushin fr g0d kn0ws hw long! i didnt reply s0 i t0ld him 2 giv me an h0ur. i nvr expected dis 2 c0me s0 so0n.. watchin d firew0rks, starin at each 0ther.. prayin dis m0ment cud last fr eternity.. it ended. we wen 2 find a t0ilet 2 wash 0ff d muds but cudnt take it n0 l0nger s0 washed it 0ff in a raffles blvd f0untain. thristy, we b0ught evian wif 2 nescafe; 0riginal & latte b4 sittin at a taxi stand..
12:53 am 0nwards, we venture 2 all d clubbin destitudes.. ahaks! it was funny. wen we came by club marquees, it was playin, girlfriend by justin timberlake!.. wat d hell. 1:15am, 0ff 2 bugis n went tru dark sp0oky underpaSs 2 g0lden landmark.. 2:16am; he kept askin & i didnt wnt 2 h0ld it back n0 m0re so i gav him d answer dat he deserve.. hunger fr f0od! t0ok away 2 mcspicy+fries+ice lem0n tea & ate it at d bugis junc sideway. its 3am! dats fast!!..
4:07am; we began 0ur misSi0n 2 pr0ceed 2 yishun 0n F0OT!! we succeed til amk b4 0ur legs gav way.. it was a mem0rable incident!.. as f0llows are d events..
1) he need a t0ilet.. luckily,i saw a shell stati0n! it was in lavender area!! haha! funny seyy..
2) went by p0lice academy.. sp0oky! he scare me! i cnt recall d 0ther places th0ugh.. at 1 pt, he burped l0udly hittin his chest at d same time & said,"chibai.." L0UDLY!!.. embarassin..
3) thr0ughout d j0urney, we kept glancin at each 0ther in t0tal bewilderment as we pass by his ite & h0tels!..
4) dis is d b0mb!.. we wer engr0ss talkin abt d burpin incident & laughin 0ur heads 0ff at 6+ 0pp0site sin ming industrial. all 0f a sudden, he grab my hand tightly, stared at smth in fr0nt 0f him, l0oked at me, let g0 of my hand n shrieked," ape tu?!" still gigglin, i f0llowed his stare. a shiny ting stayin still at d buzst0p. freaky! sh0cked s0 i sh0ut," siak ar eu! ape seyy tu?.." while pushin him & gettin ready 2 run.. he checked it 0ut & gueSs wat?.. its a apek wif a shiny b0tak patch at d centre 0f his head. hahaha!!.. s0 malu. we laughed abt 0ur dumbnesS til amk b4 an0ther apek bcame a j0ke. a apek riding bicycle 'rriiiinnngg..rriinnnggg..' s0 i turn & i t0ld h0neypie,"eu, sane skt ade 0rg nk lalu.." he turned bhind n yell,"sial laa!!" hahaha. s0 cute. 0ur 010107 st0ry.
shack. we t0ok 851 til ys b4 departing. takin 852 h0me, i fell asleep. he's a darling.. rch h0me, sh0wer & bamm! slept frm 8 am til 12n0on. well, gueSs i'll end here. exhausted!. haha. keep y'all updated if p0ssible. c ya..
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