Monday, 19 February 2007
3:52 pm
life's flickering evr n0w & den.. i shud b c0ntented, shudnt i? having a guy wh0's dev0ted, a family dat cares & frens wh0 l0ves me. i sudnt even asked f0r m0re.. right?.. im l0st. h0peleSsly l0st like as th0ugh im stuck in an an0ther dimensi0n 0f many l0ve fen0mena.. y izit even happening t0 me?.. gueSsed im never d str0ng girl dat i used t0 b tks t0 all d breakups & heartaches dat last f0r m0nths l0ng..
am i th0r0ughly dragging him d0wn wif me? i s0o truly tink dat im burdening him wif my super-eg0 self-centredneSs. dammit! y cant tings b a wayy l0t simpler like bck in d pri sch days.. tings pe0ple tell me kept b0thering my mind & i definitely n0t d kinda girl wh0 will filter 0ut tings whenever im being t0ld t0 listen. shucks. im d0ne f0r it. d0omed.. i fail t0 please any0ne. even myself. devastated.
niwae, i jus came bck h0me frm sent0sa. family day kinda stuff t0day, real fun. we came real early & hawt sex ( guys i mean ) wer like EVERYWHERE! dats great. futherm0re, hunn wrking t0day but didnt get t0 see him but i s0 t0tali ad0re d unif0rm. d c0lours are ad0rably cute c0s i [̲̅ə̲̅٨̲̅٥̲̅٦̅] pastel c0lours! k, we drive in t0 palawan & d idi0tic admissi0n guy tryna hit 0n me. unf0rtunately, my dad d0esnt like him. t0o bad dear.. u've been rejected.
k, d beach was super packed wif mats & m0re hawt guys!! im desperate, i supp0sed. im super sick 0f my life dat im like in a maj0r need t0 scream in a bucket full 0f watevr! darn it. sun tanning & sun bathing, fab0lous c0s i finali felt dat my pr0bs are dr0wned by d sea currents. pleasant feeling. i ease d pr0bs 0f my head f0r once.. b0ys are just traumas.. at least d beach day 0ut was great.
h0t guys tryna b pimping but i aint feeling it.. s0 it began t0 drizzle s0 i went t0 sh0wer up s0 we can pack up & head h0me earlier. sands were like all 0ver my butt! dammit. k, i g0t it all 0ff den my wh0le family had lunch in d tent. cute sia.. we ate sambal telur wif sambal g0reng & rice.. my dad crack a lame j0ke! its funny th0ugh c0s d wh0le family laughed crazily.. aft dat, we r0und abt sent0sa bef0re driving pass m0unt faber. den i went h0me.. i need t0 bathe! tkcr l0vely..
This is Love,
right?