late call at 11:03pm yesterday.. its my swithart. 0bvi0usly i was glad dat he called c0s d last time we chat was at 6pm.. i t0t he was g0na f0llow his mum 2 d sh0p 0r smth s0 i didnt call his h0use. actuali, he went 2 d sh0p under d blk. dumb me. in d aftnun, he went 2 acc0mpany his fren & later came 0ver his place. s0 i cudnt p0ssibly talk 2 him fr l0ng.. wen he call, he t0ld me abt wat dey did.. s0me weird & digustin.. eiks! eu shud undrstnd wat hapens wen 2 guys meet & dey cant get their hands 0ff each 0ther.. yiks! gr0sS!

wen we'r 0n d ph0ne, he wil alwys b playin d pSp. s0 i asked,'eu tgh main game eh?' he said,'ya, b0ring ar tkde bende nk buat..' i rply,'kirekan, b0ring eh bual dgn i?'. he laughed,'mane ade, sblum i call eu i da b0ring s0 bile da call, i c0nt la main game..'. haha! wat an excuse. i dun mind. he's still s0 shwiit. we c0nt talkin abt wh0 called me. wat dat guy wanted.. crap.

we talked abt cheese. he missed d melted cheese dat he ate at my place.. haha! i asked him 2 c0me 2 my place & eat but he said dat he was shy.. s0 suggested dat send it by FedEx. we j0ke sayin dat by d time it reaches his h0use, it wud hav fungus & dat he'll die aft eatin it. we laugh c0s its dumb. we talked abt suing FedEx f0r being sl0w in d delivery. haha! its lame rite..

abt 0ur r'ship, we hardly evr argue. evn if we d0, it isnt abt us but s0meone else.. hah! d0esnt make sense. s0 we wer tinkin wat wud happen if evry0ne kn0ws?.. bet we'r g0na argue. hate dat. i cant evn bear 2 raise my v0ice at him.. it breaks my hear 2 d0 so.. 1am dis m0rning,i ask him 2 st0p playin d game & g0 2 sleep. s0 he st0p but played s0ngs. urgh!.. b0ys jus cant get separated fr0m their t0ys..

1st s0ng played sams0n-bukan diriku. he gav a scenari0;' it was raining heavily & we wer arguin.. i didnt f0rgive him. i didnt l0ok at his face c0s i was angry at him. he smiled but i didnt care. he was drenched. he went 2 d buzst0p & b0ard d bus. d bus met wif an accident & n0body survived. came h0me & tried callin him but cant get thru. in d paper d nxt day, i g0t d news.. i was depressed.' i heard dat & tears trickled 0n my bed..

played babyface-l0neliness & marc anth0ny-my baby y0u. 2nd scene;' we wer talkin 0n d ph0ne while he was 0n d way 2 mit me. im usin prepaid s0 aft an h0ur, it will aut0 hangup. at dat p0int in time, he was cr0ssing d r0ad. wen d recepti0n hangup, he l0oked 0n his hp & a vehicle hit him. his sis called me sayin dat he's g0ne.' my bed was wet wif tears.. & he said,' imagine, d last v0ice i heard was urs b4 i died.' i s0bbed.

j0j0-weak & christina-hurt;' he kept a secret, pr0misin 2 tell 1 day. he call sayin he's at d h0sp visitin his c0usin & ask me 2 c0me. i came & his was 0n d bed. he t0ld me he a sickness & he w0nt b able 2 live l0nger. d nxt day, he passed away.' dis was d saddest c0s i rmbr nadiah. i tink i didnt treasure her enuf. i cried, feelin jaded. he made me tink abt d future p0ssibilities.. s0me truths dat may b unacceptable..

we ended 0ur c0nvrsati0n talkin abt 0ur religi0n & h0w pr0ud we are 2 b a muslim. talk abt judgement day.. d hist0ry 0f all d pr0phets. i felt h0ly c0s i rmbr all d hist0ry 0f d islam adventures in d early hundreds. im blessed 2 have d kn0wledge. i thank my parents f0r enr0llin me 2 classes. i wudnt b wh0 i m if n0t f0r dem. i l0ve dem, my her0es. ~ im l0ved.