i dun0 y but im jus 2 drained 2 g0 out 2dae.. its n0t like i dun wana mit hiim 0r anyting, its jus dat i tink we shud mit s0 often.. c0s eu kn0w h0w its like rite?.. in d beginning, eu mit all d time.. as time passes by, eu mit 0nly like 0nce a week 0r w0rse, 0nce a m0nth. many tings 0n my mind.. heikal's c0ming back 2 s'p0re tmr. he wants me back but ive alrdy given my heart 2 s0meone else.

its heart wrenchin if eu used 2 l0ved s0meone f0r so l0ng but dat pers0n jus left eu questi0nin whether izit f0r real & wen u've given up, he returns.. im speechless. guys r simply tr0ubles0me. y mus dey make my life a tragedy?.. can eu jus leave me al0ne?.. im sick 0f all dis.. it makes me wana giv up but i've alrdy pr0mise hiim dat i'll h0ld 0n n0 matter wat d circumstances are.. im s0rry bie. im pressured.

basicali i spent d wh0le aftnun talkin 2 fadli. he cheered me up. rina j0ined in d c0nference & she made frens wif him. haha. rina had an arguement wif luqfi, bf. s0 fadli was like j0kin ard makin us laugh. such a darling. aft rina hung up, i c0nt talkin 2 him. he shared his life st0ry. i've 0nly kn0wn him f0r a m0nth but he's been such a great pal. thankin eu s0 much. we'll talk again s0on. my h0ney was 0utside, went 2 s0me cerem0ny 0f his late canteen vend0r. i called his h0use ard 8pm but n0body answer. perhaps he's busy. futherm0re, his hp is wif his fren.. hais. i wished eu wer here.. ):

can anyting get w0rst?.. cin0 called c0mplainin dat haslam asked f0r my number. i mean, wats d deal? we'r n0 longer attch & u've alrdy hav a girl. y b0ther s0 much abt my life. i dun bug eu s0 dun piss me 0ff. its light0ut but he called sayin dat he misses me. get a grip! i dun care. u've f0oled me enuff & im n0 l0nger falling f0r anym0re. i thru wif eu.. g0sh. i shudnt even b bl0gging. im g0in thru s0 much angst. i'll g0 off b4 i burst.