Saturday, 27 January 2007
11:58 pm
c0mplicati0ns aft c0mplicati0ns.. its started 0ff like shit bc0s tix fr d match was s0ld0ut & i didnt feel like entertaining him at all. vry much unlike me.. he pik me up frm my place. stubb0rn. he left his h0use like super early ard 1+ rite aft his s0ccer match. hah! s0 basicali he's been like 0ut since m0rning. guys tk reti makne penat esp wen it c0ncerns s0ccer. like dey say, b0ys wil b b0ys..
niwae, he said 4pm undr my blk but 4:30pm den he called. beep his hp, n0 value. den i went t0 buy d c0ntacts s0luti0n at d uncle wh0 alwys giv me disc0unts & bump int0 din0, achik & b0b. smue tukar num, like shit seyy.. s0 i ign0re him like al0t 0f times. we didnt knw wher 2 head t0 so we b0ard 963 til viv0. in d bus i fell aslp c0s hvnt had peaceful nights lately. still n0t talking t0 hiim.. i was still upset 0ver d c0nversati0n i had wif dat GIRL frm his past.. )):
at viv0, still n0t much talking. he talked but i was silent. weird huh? im usuali n0isy. we kep 0ur distance while walking. d wh0le day was b0ring, i s0meh0w cant bring myself t0 talk t0 him. d truth hurts badly, can s0meb0dy st0p all dis madneSs. i dun wana make rash decisi0ns. i saw aqila w her bf in viv0, she l0oks fab. he wanted t0 buy s0me mkn in GIANT & wanted t0 drag me al0ng. hais.. lazy seyy. cann0t g0 al0ne huh?.. ): n0 m0od la. duncha get it?..
left viv0, head t0 seah im f0odc0urt. i didnt feel like eating but i knew he was hungry & wil 0nly eat if i d0 s0 i 0rder kway te0w. fattening! ugh. wel, as l0ng as he mkn, i'd b fine.. evn if i l0ok like a fat pig. bleah! ate d same ting but t0tal silent. he talk n0t me. hah! im like s0 d0wn. i ate wif little appetite & a fucked up face which l0oks like im crying. terrible. k, he wana send me h0me strait aft dinner its 0nly 7+. s0 early?.. s0 we sat ard at d intrchnge & had t0 brace his iritatingneSs.
at 0ne p0int, i cudnt take it s0 i walked 0ff & cr0sS d 0vrhead bridge tinkin dat i shud take 61 since 963 was f0revr packed. sat der fr a while b4 returnin t0 d intrchnge. he's g0ne..~n0p,he came back dr0pped d pSp & raise his v0ice. watevr. still pisSing me 0ff s0 i lined up fr 963 but halfway, danial called s0 i wennt t0 mit him at d mrt & t0pup my ezlink t0o. i came back up tinkin he had g0ne h0me but n0o0o.. he's der still waiting. sweet but sickening. desperate t0 send me h0me. cant 0blige n0 l0nger. s0 i jus kept mum.
963 & saw fuckin nurul wh0 st0le apul frm me. bitch. had t0 sit bside her in d bus. he didnt help.. kept fiddlin wif my hands, lying 0n my sh0ulders & sayin dat he'll l0ve me evn if i dun. ya.. blah blah blah. suddenly, my heart s0ften s0 i entertain him. he seemed ecstatic c0s i resp0nd t0 his lameneSs. still cheery s0 we hang0ut at d playgrd's tunnel in frnt 0f cik piah's h0use. sp0re & msia 1-1. my neighb0urh0od was alive at night. hah!
wel, in d end sp0re w0n frm penalty s0 2-1 ((: glad i was. he was thrilled t0o esp c0nfessing dat he w0re d sp0re jersey but wen he f0unf 0ut d tix was s0ld0ut, he zipped up his jacket. dumb! wel, i cant bear seeing th0se d0pey eyes wen he's eyes gets watery. its heart melting. aww.. he finali knew dat i was a risk taker. s0 sl0w sia.. like it? u basket.nvm. sent him 0ff t0 d 852 buzstp, kiszed him gdnight & went h0me. dats it, 0ff t0 bed n0w. bye.. (:
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